With not a bang, but a whimper

[flyboy_fox]

Heh.

While I disagree with 'angry anon' over it being cowardly or bad form to ask friends with greater knowledge of these things for advice on 'kin/bond related matters pertaining to my partner and I, I'm closing down that last post anyway. People who responded gave me some fresh new perspective and maybe even helped me to figure things out a bit as to why I feel the way I do, and what's going on here. It's enough. I think I'm good, now, in regards to that.

The truth is, while anon may think me a shallow cretin for spilling as much as I did, the whole bond thing barely scratches the surface of the issues and things I'm feeling shite about at the moment. But as I said at the top of the last post, I won't go into that here. I may have some hypocritical tendencies, but I do know what things are for public discourse and which are not. I'll apologise for nothing in my last post, yet in the name of harmony (or civility at least, lest any of my friends' good names are dragged down for no reason), we'll consider the former matter closed, and I'll deal with the latter on my own.

Thanks everyone who replied to the previous post.

See ya later.

Edit: Ugh. Lately all I can now is sleep. All night, most of the day, all night again. Even after all that, I can't keep my eyes open. All I think about is sleep x.x Usually indicated slipping back into stage 2 of depression. It's not even winter. It's sunny! I just wanna curl up forever and sleep. *Goes back to bed at 4pm*

Comments

[kalium-kx.livejournal.com]

Ah i see...I dunno..I assumed she did tell you about it..she has a secret hiding tendency but not very well at keeping em' in..

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

A secret hiding tendency? Lol wtf. What does that even mean?

[kalium-kx.livejournal.com]

...maybe you're not supposed to know xP


Like a tendency to hide secrets?

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

When have I ever had a tendency to hide secrets? All my posts are public, even the ones likely to get me trolled, and I talk to Jei about everything XD Not sure where you're getting that idea from. I'm about the most open person there is :P

[kalium-kx.livejournal.com]

I dunno, man..You have courage, kid..i'll grant you that..but you really give me that vibe that you keep your own lil' secrets when you can..withdrawn in your own way rather..

And you did hide the fact you were a girl in a way..but i don't mean to be accusatory..

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Nah, I never hid that I'm biologically female. I mentioned it several times, but people didn't catch on because no one directly asked. I identify as male, so there was no reason to call myself female in my journal.

I don't keep secrets. I mean, look at all the stuff I've told people over time about all my weirdnesses and eccentricities XD I'm totally not the secretive type, as Jei below will testify.

[kalium-kx.livejournal.com]

I'm not saying your the secretive type totally..you are an open book..and i did say in a way...

but i can see some things you might wanna keep to yourself..like your own hidey-hole or something..it's something to do with your insecurities..

I'm not a cowardly anon as you put it but technically she is a biased witness..technically
I'm just being objective here not mean-spirited

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

She's known me, in person as well as online, for 10 years. You know me a little online. I'd say she's the better character judge (;

[kalium-kx.livejournal.com]

Alright alright..i'll let you have this one..i think we're going in circles anyway and prolonging on the internetz is pointless..

I was just merely stating my opinion which i'm entitled don't take it personally..

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

I'm not taking it personally. I'm just confused (and mildly amused) that you'd think you know something like that about me, when it's pretty much well known by everyone else that my problem is I talk too MUCH about personal stuff and don't really keep ANY secrets about myself XD Jai is an open book.

[way-past-cool.livejournal.com]

You're entitled to have the opinion that France is the same as Japan, but if you've only read a travel brochure about both you reeeeally don't have enough to go on to form an informed opinion. Futher more, if a French citizen and Japanese citizen came to you and said it wasn't so, one would hope you'd take their word for it.

Like Jai said, we've been together for over ten years, far longer than we've known any of our LJ friends, even the ones from way back.. which you are not one of.

I'm sorry if I'm sounding snarky or hostile. Not usually my style... but damn you came out of nowhere and presumed to tell Jai what he's like without even knowing him... and THEN write off my opinon as being biased and invalid? XD I'm sure you're well aware your silly strikethroughs ain't hidin' nothing.

[way-past-cool.livejournal.com]

XD If there's one thing Jai ISN'T, it's a secret keeper. n.n; just not Jai's style....