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[flyboy_fox]

I just realised something so fucked up that I actually laughed out loud when it occurred to me.

Friday 24th of June, next Friday, is the day I'm supposed to be travelling to London for Summer of Sonic.

I just realized that it's also the date of my mum's hospital appointment to see if the lumps in her breast are cancer.

I wanted to go to the hospital with her. I told her I would, before I realised (just now) that it clashed with London.

I know that when I tell her it's SoS weekend, she'll tell me to go to SoS, she'll INSIST, especially since my hotel is all booked and everything and I'm staffing. But how can I do that? And even if I do, how can I enjoy myself when I'm worrying myself sick about her?

I know there's an 80-90% chance that it's perfectly harmless. But I also know that my mum is scared, especially since some of the sampling procedures might be uncomfortable/painful. I know she'll be fine, but...

I don't know what the fuck to do.

It seems almost obvious to say "fuck SoS, I'm staying with my mum, she needs me", but I dunno if that'd be more stressful for her in the end... she'll get all upset about wasted money, and I know she'll blame herself for me not going and she'll feel guilty, no matter what I say. I don't know what to do, no sir I do not.

Comments

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

I have a wonderful relationship with my mother, so I really do want to do what's right by her... I'm just not sure what the best thing to do is, given how I know she'll react when I tell her :\

[valkyriur.livejournal.com]

Your mother sounds a lot like my mother-in-law from what you're saying here. She would want you to go have fun, especially since you made the reservations. Definitely go talk to her and see how she feels about it. If you have a cell, maybe you could talk before and after, so you're in touch?