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[flyboy_fox]

I know I said I really need to lay off the alcohol for a while, but Miles, Jei and I ALL really want to try this. It sounds SO good:

Roasted Toasted Almond

The Roasted Toasted Almond (or Burnt Almond ) is roasted by adding vodka to a Toasted Almond. Both are relaxing sippers with a nice almond-coffee flavoring and are really nice on chilly fall evenings by the fire.

Ingredients:

    * 1 oz vodka
    * 1 oz coffee liqueur
    * 1 oz Amaretto
    * milk or cream

Preparation:

   1. Build the vodka and liqueurs in an old-fashioned glass filled with ice.
   2. Fill with milk or cream.
   3. Shake by placing a mixing tin over the glass and giving it one or two good shakes. 

God, it just sounds so yummy... and comforting. Perfect for a winter's eve. Unfortunately (fortunately?) we are still totally broke right now, so buying a bottle each of Smirnoff, Disoronno and Kahlua is going to be impossible for a while. But maybe it's something we could try around Christmastime! You know, along with Horchata... we really wanna try making that too. Inspired by Vampire Weekend of course (; *Sings*

In December, drinking horchata
I'd look psychotic in a balaclava
Winter's cold is too much to handle
Pincher crabs that pinch at your sandals

Here comes a feeling you thought you'd forgotten!
Chairs to sit and sidewalks to walk on
Oh you had it, but oh no, you lost it
Looking back you shouldn't have fought it

I love the instrumental selection in this song. It's all clinky and chimey and not the usual. Jei heard it a lot on the radio around this time last year when she was in London for two weeks doing work experience at Millennium FX. When she got home, we scoured BBC Radio's playlist and found it ♥

In other important news, I finally manned up and called my mum. One of us had to break the silence. It was coming up on a full month! Well, she SORTA did first by sending me a bunch of mail from the house with a kinda passive-aggressive note saying she was sending it on to me because she didn't know when she would see me next x.o Gee, I wonder why? But anyway, bygones be bygones. I called and chatted for a while. We didn't mention the whole weight issue, but I'm sure it'll come up again before I go home for Xmas. I did find out, though, that her job is making a 60% cost cut, so she's been looking for other work just in case. I highly doubt she'll be made redundant because she's very good at her job and one of the most experienced and professional people they have, but I can't blame her for being scared. I also found out that she visited my Great Aunt Ivy, the last remaining of my late Grandma's siblings and generation. She's 97 and apparently has advanced dementia. Very sad. 97 is a grand old age, but I have to wonder if life is worth hanging on to when you're that confused and afraid and have no idea where you are or who anyone is. I can only imagine it would be Hell.

I'm gonna try to get through this winter the best I can. I'm gonna try to help Miles get hold of some of the things he wants, to the best of my ability, because if he's somewhat content we'll all be a lot happier :P Also because I'm kind of curious to see if we CAN get hold of all the things on his eclectic little checklist.

Time for me to man up and stop feeling like a victim. I'll start by kicking these winter blues in the butt. Miles better work with me on this because frankly I'm done with just dealing with his attitude. I know I made a lot of mistakes with him in the past, didn't respect him, forced my ideals on him and pushed him back. But I'm not going to be forced into a chokehold just because he's in a bad mood and can't decide if he wants to kill me, himself, or random people on the street. Get a grip, guy. I always admired the control and self-restraint he had. Where did that go? Yeah, I'll grant him that he's not used to the crazy electrical storm in my brain every winter, but he's gonna have to just deal with it. I'll do what I can for us both and for Jei so she doesn't have to suffer me too much either, but it's gotta be a team effort, like it or not, or everything's just gonna fall apart. Maybe he thinks that's what he wants because he's pissed and confused right now, but I doubt it really. I'm sure he'll be back to normal soon because I actually have faith in him, stupid me ♥

Now I actually feel a bit better. Cathartic and somewhat optimistic post was cathartic and somewhat optimistic. (:

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[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I do feel better that I at least called her and got that out of the way. Takes a bit of the guilt off my back ^^;

SAD sucks, but at least I seem to have good days as well as bad ones :P My life's not a black hole of despair (yet) :P