Ugh.

[flyboy_fox]

I really overdid the alcohol on Saturday night. It was one of those things where I really had no idea how much I'd had to drink until after the event. I guess it was around a straight litre of 45% alc exported vodka. I thought I was fine, perfectly coherent, chatting and having fun online... sure, my inhibitions were shot, but I was having fun. Stayed up 'til around 10:30am, which is when Jei woke up, then as soon as I got up from my chair - FWOOMP. Totally paraplegic. Slept most of the day on the floor. An attractive sight? No. An embarrassment? Yeah. I keep telling myself I won't drink so much any more. I know I have a problem. I should drink to have fun and loosen up, not to get totally shit-faced and then spend the next day wishing for death because I felt so fucking awful. One of these days I'll wind up worse than just dehydrated and sick. I am definitely a binge drinker. It is not good. I don't want to brand myself an alcoholic, because that would mean never allowing myself to drink EVER. But if I can't control myself, I wonder what choices are left to me?

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[sletia.livejournal.com]

*giggle* Didn't get far from the computer after you left?

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

[_] >-|o

The box is my desk and computer. The stick person is me. @_@

[sletia.livejournal.com]

xD
Okay, considering our conversation and how it ended with you on the floor? That's hilarious.

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

So much for having control of the situation x.o;;

[sletia.livejournal.com]

Dude, didn't Jei drag you to bed? I would have. You can't sleep on the floor. D:
At least a pillow and blanket. :3

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

She couldn't get me up onto the bed, but she did throw a blanket over me ^^;

[sletia.livejournal.com]

x3
Ah, good times. A perfect end to a perfect night, wouldn't you say? I'd say. ;) Get a friend back, get drunk, fall down.

[shadowdingo.livejournal.com]

Sounds like someone needs to settle down with the drinking. :P

All joking aside though, despite the fact I've never got drunk myself (I really can't stand the taste of most alcoholic drinks), a member of my family has had to go into hospital from drinking way too much before. Suppose it's part of the reason I tend to only really have one, maybe two, sort of alcopop (yes, really -_-) drinks then stay on soft drinks the rest of the night.

Suppose I'm slightly lucky that noisy pubs/clubs etc. tend to give me killer headaches so I can't stay in them too long. Student party life hasn't got to me yet.

... yet. x.@

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

I hope you can keep up the strength to avoid the temptation n.n; It really isn't worth it.

You'd think I would be scared off from overdrinking after my neighbour committed suicide as a direct result of drinking... But apparently I'm an idiot.

[sletia.livejournal.com]

Same reason my cousin took up smoking when her mother died from it.
Who knows why. :/

[shadowdingo.livejournal.com]

I hope so too. It's a way of life I'd rather not get sucked into.

That certainly would have scared me. Then again, I got scared by all those videos they used to show my class in school where people would end up getting pissed, doing stupid things like having unprotected sex and ending up pregnant or with STDs. I think I just scare too easily. Ungh. x_x

I'm pretty sure there's help around somewhere. Have a good look on the web, or maybe see if there's a forum around for this sort of thing. Knowing you're not alone in things can sometimes help, and then you can discuss different experiences with it and find good tips to prevent things getting out of hand.

Either way, hope things turn out okay for you with this.

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

I guess I'm afraid to seek help because I'm scared they'll tell me the only way to get better is to never touch a drop of drink again. I want to still be able to drink occasionally and socially, but I'm afraid that I won't be able to do that. I'll always be after that completely out-of-it feeling because it's so nice.

[shadowdingo.livejournal.com]

So long as you can take control, and not have it control you, I don't see any problems with drinking occasionally and socially. I feel like a bit of an outcast not really drinking, in all honesty. <_< And I agree that cutting it out all together probably won't be a good solution. Everyone is different and you've got to find a solution that works for you. What works for A may not work at all for B. And similarly, B's solution may not be very helpful to A. Sometimes it helps to have a non-drinking person with you if you're out and about, just to make sure that you can have the fun you want, but not get to the point where you're beating yourself up for having too much. Sorry, I know I'm not being much help right now. ^^;;

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I know that I CAN have fun without getting totally plastered. I guess I need to remember to put the activity I'm doing first, not the drinking. I'd hate to get to the point where absolutely NOTHING is fun unless I'm totally drunk.

[shadowdingo.livejournal.com]

I'm sure it won't get that bad. But if you need me to be the non-drunk person at a pre-SoS or post-SoS party in the future, let me know and I'll do what I can.

For now, I can only leave you with the above. Sorry I can't be of more help, I don't have much experience with alcohol. :/

[valkyriur.livejournal.com]

I admit I got a little too into my drink a couple of times and regretted it the next day. The way I've learned to slow down the pace is to drink a glass of water between each alcoholic beverage. Maybe you could try that?

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

I guess I can try that. I tend to knock back shot after shot after shot, so quickly that I'm on shot three before I even start to feel the effect of shot one, and so on. And so then it suddenly hits me and I'm far more drunk than I ever intended on getting. The water idea might help slow me down... I'll try it.

[valkyriur.livejournal.com]

I know you prefer shots, but have you tried mixing drinks? You mention vodka in particular. It can be tossed into just about any juice or soda that you like. I do the same with tequila. :)

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

I usually start the evening with a mixer, but it runs out before the vodka does ^^; Last night I had some diet coke with the first three or four drinks, but then it was all gone so I started just knocking the vodka straight back. I'm not that fond of mixers... Miles HATES mixing anything with his vodka. He drinks it like water. But I'm okay with mixing if I have to, so I guess I should try to do it more often and not just drink the stuff straight, tempting as it is @_@

[valkyriur.livejournal.com]

There's been several articles over the past few years that suggest that the artificial sugars in diet drinks speed up inebriation: New York Times. Not sure if you knew that or not.

The only other thing I can think to mention is to make sure you eat something before you start drinking. I hope it all works out well for you. :)

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Hmm. I knew that sugar seems to make it worse for me, but diet sweeteners could too? What should I mix with?

I probably should keep some crackers at hand. I tend to try to sober up by nibbling, but if I eat first that might help too.

Thanks for all the advice! (:

[(Anonymous)]

What to mix it with if you're getting the same effect with sugary drink and artificial sugar drinks? I'm not sure. >.< If I come across any alternatives, I'll let you know.

[inkedfeathers.livejournal.com]

I can't offer much help at all, but you know, even if they do make you quit alcohol entirely for a while, once you're through with your addiction, maybe you'll be able to take a few drinks later on after all is said and done?

If not, I suppose you'll just have to find a way to deal with this.

Don't they just try to limit your intake first, though? I remember when the Quran was first being revealed and the Arabs strongly associated the consumption of alcoholic drinks with socializing, so Allah did not forbid it all at once, as that would be too difficult and sudden a change for the Arabs to make, so he forbid it in stages, first forbidding anyone to come to prayer while intoxicated, then revealing that while alcohol had some good and bad effects for the people, the bad outweighed the good... before finally Muslims were ordered to abstain from intoxicants.

/obligatory religion lesson

xD;;;

Good luck! This habit's rather nasty and it certainly takes its toll on your body. ^^;;

I... haven't actually had much contact with alcohol at all, outside of topical Xylocaine and rubbing alcohol for wounds. Never sipped a drop of a drink (not that that's such a great feat considering my faith and where I live and all), so... ^^;

I've only ever encountered drunk folks in Morocco!

Still, I wish you the best of luck, buddy, and I hope it will be made easy (or, well, as easy as it gets). ♥

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

I'm such an impulsive person that I dunno if I can do the whole 'moderation' thing... I've tried many times before :\ I'm afraid the only way to stop myself from binge-drinking like this is to just not have alcohol in the house at all ^^;

It's cool how I learn plenty of stuff about Islam from your posts (: It's all very interesting so I hope you'll continue to tell me ^^

[inkedfeathers.livejournal.com]

Ah, then, I wish you luck and I hope you find the strength to go through with it.

Aw, I'd hate to annoy someone by talking too much about my religion, so it means a lot when you tell me stuff like that!

In that case, I'll continue to bring it up when relevant (and when it's easy enough for me to keep things short, since some of these things are a science all their own and could easily fill volumes xD;; ).