With not a bang, but a whimper

[flyboy_fox]

Heh.

While I disagree with 'angry anon' over it being cowardly or bad form to ask friends with greater knowledge of these things for advice on 'kin/bond related matters pertaining to my partner and I, I'm closing down that last post anyway. People who responded gave me some fresh new perspective and maybe even helped me to figure things out a bit as to why I feel the way I do, and what's going on here. It's enough. I think I'm good, now, in regards to that.

The truth is, while anon may think me a shallow cretin for spilling as much as I did, the whole bond thing barely scratches the surface of the issues and things I'm feeling shite about at the moment. But as I said at the top of the last post, I won't go into that here. I may have some hypocritical tendencies, but I do know what things are for public discourse and which are not. I'll apologise for nothing in my last post, yet in the name of harmony (or civility at least, lest any of my friends' good names are dragged down for no reason), we'll consider the former matter closed, and I'll deal with the latter on my own.

Thanks everyone who replied to the previous post.

See ya later.

Edit: Ugh. Lately all I can now is sleep. All night, most of the day, all night again. Even after all that, I can't keep my eyes open. All I think about is sleep x.x Usually indicated slipping back into stage 2 of depression. It's not even winter. It's sunny! I just wanna curl up forever and sleep. *Goes back to bed at 4pm*

Comments

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

The hypocrisy was in calling someone a coward whilst being one oneself. I also still feel that it was an unfair and untrue accusation. But... semantics aside, I'm not sure what anons feel gives them the right to judge me without even saying who they are. If all they know of me is posts on the internet, I'd hardly call that a strong basis.

[(Anonymous)]

I am not sure what saying who they are has to do with having the "right" to judge you. That doesn't make any sense. Also, I wouldn't call it a "right" so much as a simple ability to do so. You put yourself out there and people judge what you display of yourself. Like it or don't like it, that's all there is to it.

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

I suppose that's true. Everyone judges. Rather, what I mean to say is on what basis can they judge something as infinitely complex and personal as the state of my relationship or the way I deal with an issue pertaining to that relationship when all they presumably know of me is from some posts in my journal?

[(Anonymous)]

Yeah, I'll agree with you there. The problem seems to be that someone jumped to conclusions based on their biases about what they think about your personality and behavior. Even if by some chance they are correct, it's not really their business, now is it? You can't rescue someone from an abusive relationship via LiveJournal or the Internet. This is doubly true if they don't actually know either of you personally.

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Indeed.

I'm not really sure how one LJ post is proof of anything. I've been nothing but loving towards Jei in every other post I've ever made. It feels like a personal attack, which is why I want to know who that person is and why they feel the way they do about me. But just as they can't do anything to 'save' Jei from wherever they are, I suppose I can't do anything to challenge them either. Such is the nature of these here interbutts.