Uggghhhh dying...

[flyboy_fox]

Ugh. Today was a frustrating day for deliveries.

I was supposed to be receiving that Gyrocopter and the cross-trainer machine today. Neither arrived.

The cross-trainer was particularly frustrating. I was up until 9am last night/morning cleaning up the apartment so I'd have room to put it. I was woken in the early afternoon by the door buzzer. Aha! Delivery! So, I go to the door and instead of a large box, the guy has a tiny little packet for me. Confused, I sign for it anyway, thinking it must be something else that I ordered a while back. I open it up and it's the fricking batteries for the cross-trainer's display. I was woken to sign for a packet of 4 AA batteries. Urgh. So, I call up Argos and they tell me that the cross-trainer itself is delayed until Monday. Why they decided to ship the batteries separately and have me sign for them I DO NOT KNOW. This is made worse by the fact that I paid £3 extra to have them deliver on Saturday so that I could get started right away to give me a good distraction from sitting and drinking. Lame, Argos, LAME.

Then the Gyrocopter... They assured me I'd have it before Sunday. Promise fail. What if I actually DID intend to give it to my dad for Fathers' Day, huh? :P

Aaanyway. Yeah. Disappointing :\

I was doing okay this evening and then suddenly, out of nowhere, I started feeling really ill ^^; Shivering and shaking, dizzy, headache, stomach ache, and feeling sick. I'm not surprised. I have been treating my body like shit lately. Let's see:

- Drinking every night to the point of inebriation
- Drinking practically no water
- Eating only one meal a day, and the same thing each time with no variation
- Staying up 'til past 4am every night, sleeping all day 'til mid-afternoon/evening
- Not going outside or even opening the windows for air
- Spending 95% of my waking time at my computer

Seriously, the only surprising thing is that it took this long for my body to say "yo, fuck you!" and start hardcore complaining ^^; I feel a little better now that I've had some bread and some carrot and lentil soup.

I know, I know, why you still on kompyoota at past midnight, Jai? I'll get to bed soon. Jei and I worked out a 'schedule' earlier today to allow us both time off the computer and to factor in exercise and stuff. I'm going to force myself to do 30 minutes on the cross-trainer each day (in two 15 minute stretches), and one 15 minute floor exercise routine from this DVD Jei left with me. I think 10am is a good time to do it. Gives me time to get up, have a cup of tea and some breakfast, and start the day in style. I'm also going to walk more, starting with taking my CV into town and dropping it off wherever I can, as well as walking down to the Town Hall to enquire about housing benefits to help with rent while I'm (hopefully briefly) unemployed. Finally, I am going to do more stuff off-line. Like reading books. Used to read a lot, need to get back into it. I'm going to try to pick up some Asimov. I used to read him a lot. It's food for the mind.

I really do think I'll feel better if I do this. Living alone is no excuse to turn into a miserable and depressed hermit. I know I've made these promises to myself so many times... but I have actually splashed out on buying a cross-trainer machine, so I really can't afford to fuck it up this time.

Edit:



SHIRT WIN. I can has?

Comments

[sletia.livejournal.com]

Always nice to meet villian otakin. We're rather sparse. Most everyone is "good" so I don't show my true colors as much.

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

Hmm. Well... give me a reason why I should waste my time with you. A lot of people claim to be evil but... when it gets down to the bone, they back out. I could crush my 'host'... would you like to see me do that...?

[sletia.livejournal.com]

Honestly?
Heh, well, I think I might piss some people off if I answered *that*.

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

Oh, well that's just too bad... "Tails" is your friend. I see. Heh...

[sletia.livejournal.com]

We ota stick together, even though I have trouble handling some of them. If they're super goody-goody I can only take them in small doses. Tails and I kinda talk, but I'm closest to Mordax, who is probably the evillest one among us. ;)
I'm a mazoku. A translation of that would be "demon." Basically beings of chaos striving to destroy the world. We feed off negative emotions. My master can kill you by thinking about it. :)

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

That's cute. I'd like to see him try~ I admire your devotion, if nothing else.

[sletia.livejournal.com]

No offense sweetie, but you're a mortal humanoid fox, not a powerful being of pure darkness that can suck your soul out and make you dance. :)

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

I'm quaking. I bow to no master. Is it fun being a slave...?

[sletia.livejournal.com]

It's not slavery in my case. And I prefer my eternal fate.

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

Your loss.

Oh, what's this? I hope you're not expecting me to add you back.

This is always the way with those who claim to be dark. They see someone else who's dark like them, and they're attracted like a magnet. Do you think we should be friends, just because we share the same love of evil...?

Allow me to destroy my host. Claim he means nothing to you. And then we'll talk.

[sletia.livejournal.com]

Well it's easier to access your journal this way. Add me, or don't. I don't really care one way or the other.
Why do you need MY permission to kill your host? Just do it then.

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

Hah! I don't need your permission. I'm just curious as to why you're even talking to me.

[sletia.livejournal.com]

Because you're interesting?

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

Oh you do know how to feed my ego. I'll give you that.

[sletia.livejournal.com]

I think it's cute a little guy like you even has an ego. :3

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

All right. Ta-ta now, little slave. One day you'll learn that 'powers' are nothing more than tools for the weak of heart. Have fun with your playthings. Daddy will be so proud.

[sletia.livejournal.com]

Have fun being confined to someone's mind. You're so adorable, you try so hard to be badass. It's gonna suck when you realize you're not invincible.

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

I never claimed to be invincible. Must we compete? I won't bow down to your master, if that's all you're after. Is that all you wanted, little girl?

[sletia.livejournal.com]

No, I just want respect. You're looking down your nose at me. I won't take that crap from you.

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

Nor will I take that from you. I suppose that leaves us at a stalemate...?

[sletia.livejournal.com]

To be fair, you started it with your claims that I was an evil wannabe. If I wish for world's destruction, and am willing to kill everyone I know without a second thought if he commands me to, how much more proof do you need?
I wasn't aware I was to pass an "evil test" to be "allowed" to talk to you.
:P

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

You need prove nothing to me. I just find it amusing that you need to invoke your 'master's image as some sort of threat. I'm not afraid of you, or your master for that fact.

[sletia.livejournal.com]

I only invoked his image when you decided to say "I'd like to see him try." That's a threat to my deity. ;) It's in my nature to defend his honor.
You also asked why you should waste your time with me. I just thought you'd like someone other than Tails to talk to. Someone who wouldn't bitch and whine about the "horrible things" you say.

[creepylilcuss.livejournal.com]

Please don't feel you have to keep me company. Unlike him, I really have no need for such petty things as 'friends'. I don't need your validation or anyone else's. How weak to always need someone to tell you it's okay...

[sletia.livejournal.com]

Just thought you'd like someone a little more like yourself to talk to. If you like being a loner, I'll leave you alone.