Various stuff
Jan. 31st, 2006 11:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flyboy_fox"ToyBox - Earth, Wind, Water and Fire" reminds me so much of Amy obsessing over Sonic, it's scary n.n;; Especially the first verse...
Love your eyes, love your smile, love your funky hair!
Love your walk, love your talk, and the things you dare!
Love you, love you, yes I do; love me not or love me too
Honey, honey, peekaboo! I'm in love with you!
::shudder:: x.x
Aaanyway... I went to the Chinese New Year celebrations in London on Sunday n.n It was awesome! I didn't get to see much of the actual parade, since it was impossible to get close enough @_@ But I did catch the dragon dancers at the end with their awesome oriental dragon on poles, visable above the crowds ^^ After that, I walked around Trafalgar Square a bit, looking at all the craft stalls and stuff... then headed into Soho/Chinatown. The whole of Chinatown was decorated so beautifully! Silk banners and red paper lanterns everywhere... and there were Lion Dancers on almost every corner n.n The crowds were a bit of a nightmare, but it was WORTH it! There's some pretty awesome shops in Chinatown... mainly Chinese, of course, but also quite a few Korean, Thai, and Japanese ^^ And the snack selection... Oh the snack selection! Pocky and Pretz in every flavor imaginable!! Row upon row of Eastern snack items! Rice-cakes, red-bean pastries, shrimp crackers, cashew biscuits, and all the usual J-brands... Gummi 100, Pocari Sweat, Calpis, Koala cracker, Sanrio snacks, sooooo much more! The Japan Centre has NOTHING on the food shops in Soho! I am SO dragging Jei there this year at some point XD Anyway, I bought some red-bean paste-filled buns. They were nice ^^ Kinda heavy (the paste), but tasty. For lunch, I had sushi in this really nice Japanese/Chinese/Thai restaurant with authentic floor-cushion seating. Mmm... sushi n.n I had a mixed platter of sushi and sashimi, with prawn toast on the side. It was nice getting to break my diet for the day ^^ Then I went to the Vue Cinema and saw Memoirs of a Geisha. It was a pretty awesome film, even if it did stray a little/omit a lot from the book. For instance, in the movie, Hatsumomo leaves the Okiya after burning it down. In the book, she slowly goes insane and ends up attacking someone at a gathering, then comes home late, totally sick and drunk, and gets kicked out by the Mother. Also, the film cuts out a lots of stuff such as the Baron getting drunk, and Dr Crab's collection of strange medical samples, and even a lot of the stuff from the beginning of the book (the movie basically begins with Chiyo and Satsu being bundled off into a cart and taken away, and omits a lot of the stuff such as the physical examination of the girls, etc). Of course, this happens invariably with any book that's turned into a movie. A lot has to be cut away, and what's left is altered at least a little. But the characterisations were really good. I liked the Mother XD Also, Hatsumomo was played very well. Such a spiteful geisha... Actually, Sayuri and Mameha and Pumpkin... all of them were played really well ^^ And although the movie was spoken in English, they kept in a lot of Japanese words, and occasionally (when it wasn't vital for us to understand exactly what was being said) they conversed in Japanese... it all looked very authentic and cool. And the kimonos and the cherry dances and the maiko debuts... all so beautifully done and awesome ^^ It was a very good movie. It was also just nice to spend the day with my mom n.n I think she had a good time too... it was nice.
Going to the Chinese New Year festivities put me in a drawing mood, so I started to doodle a pic of Sonic and Tails at the Chinese New Year celebrations XD Silly, I know. Anyway, I suck so badly at line art and coloring, so I don't think I'll bother continuing with it ^^; I'll just leave it as
Aside from that, not much else is new. Fara seems to be doing alright, despite Fox eating all her food @_@ Fara gave me a nice scratch yesterday :P Right down my wrist... about an inch long, and pretty deep (it bled). It hurt! Mean kitty. Oh well. 'Least it means she's still as fiery as ever O.o
I was gonna write about the stuff with my brother... stuff happened since the last time I talked about it. I learned that my brother hates me from deep down inside. Believe me... some of the things I overheard him saying about me, calmly, to my mom, while they were having a long talk... no one should ever hear such things being said about them by their own brother. I feel awful that he blames me for the fact that he can't see his dad... but it's not a decision I made. My mom doesn't want my dad here, and I feel the same way, but my brother feels as though my mom's taken my side. He can't see that my mom just can't live with my dad anymore. If anything, she's favored my brother's rights by letting my dad come here for 20 years. She's had enough. But yet, she would probably continue to let him come here if I wanted him here too... so... in a way, I suppose it _is_ at least partly my fault. My brother also feels that I should try harder to be normal. That if I wanted to, I could be 'normal'. That I deserved to be bullied at school because I didn't try hard enough to not be weird. That I'm a liar and a cheater and lazy and that I have my mom wrapped around my little finger. He honestly feels all these things. He resents me so deeply because I left school at 14. He believes that the anxiety attacks that kept me from leaving the house for those 4 years were 'fake'. That my tears were 'put on'. That everything I've ever done has been cold, calculated, and malicious. He feels like it's always been me and my mom against him and our dad. And... although many of the things he said were hurtful, very hurtful, I do feel sorry for him... but a lot of it is his own fault too. My mom can't be expected to tolerate the way he behaves. The way he calls her a d**khead and a c**t and a kn*b and even worse things... no one should speak to their own mother like that. And the way he expects money all the time, and he would try to take it if she didn't give it to him. He only ever speaks to her when he wants money or food. And when she can't afford to give him more money, he calls her names. And now it looks like he might be breaking up with his girlfriend @_@ I can see that leading to disaster... his criminal conviction came right after his last break-up... I really hope he doesn't get that violent again :\
But anyway, not to dwell ^^ Life goes on. No one's life is perfect, at least not always. There are ups and there are downs. Right now, I just need to focus on the ups, because there are plenty of those too n.n I'm pretty excited about hearing back from the universities! I hope I'll get an offer back soon so I can go visit them... I'm waiting for an offer, because most of them are a loooong way away and it'll cost a fair bit to travel there ^^; I got a receipt back from two of them so far, saying my application is being processed. One is in Southhampton, and one is all the way up in Lancashire @_@ Well, if it's one of those, it'll definitely have to be dorms XD
Lastly, I went through my LJ friends list. Don't worry, I don't take people off just because they haven't posted in a while or I haven't seen them online recently. The only people I removed are a) deleted journals/replaced journals, b) people who I know have abandoned their LJs or no longer have internet access, and c) one person who I can't maintain a friendship with anymore. Nevertheless, I could have made a mistake, so let me know if you think I accidentally removed you :P
Okay, I think that's enough for one entry, no? O.o
Love your eyes, love your smile, love your funky hair!
Love your walk, love your talk, and the things you dare!
Love you, love you, yes I do; love me not or love me too
Honey, honey, peekaboo! I'm in love with you!
::shudder:: x.x
Aaanyway... I went to the Chinese New Year celebrations in London on Sunday n.n It was awesome! I didn't get to see much of the actual parade, since it was impossible to get close enough @_@ But I did catch the dragon dancers at the end with their awesome oriental dragon on poles, visable above the crowds ^^ After that, I walked around Trafalgar Square a bit, looking at all the craft stalls and stuff... then headed into Soho/Chinatown. The whole of Chinatown was decorated so beautifully! Silk banners and red paper lanterns everywhere... and there were Lion Dancers on almost every corner n.n The crowds were a bit of a nightmare, but it was WORTH it! There's some pretty awesome shops in Chinatown... mainly Chinese, of course, but also quite a few Korean, Thai, and Japanese ^^ And the snack selection... Oh the snack selection! Pocky and Pretz in every flavor imaginable!! Row upon row of Eastern snack items! Rice-cakes, red-bean pastries, shrimp crackers, cashew biscuits, and all the usual J-brands... Gummi 100, Pocari Sweat, Calpis, Koala cracker, Sanrio snacks, sooooo much more! The Japan Centre has NOTHING on the food shops in Soho! I am SO dragging Jei there this year at some point XD Anyway, I bought some red-bean paste-filled buns. They were nice ^^ Kinda heavy (the paste), but tasty. For lunch, I had sushi in this really nice Japanese/Chinese/Thai restaurant with authentic floor-cushion seating. Mmm... sushi n.n I had a mixed platter of sushi and sashimi, with prawn toast on the side. It was nice getting to break my diet for the day ^^ Then I went to the Vue Cinema and saw Memoirs of a Geisha. It was a pretty awesome film, even if it did stray a little/omit a lot from the book. For instance, in the movie, Hatsumomo leaves the Okiya after burning it down. In the book, she slowly goes insane and ends up attacking someone at a gathering, then comes home late, totally sick and drunk, and gets kicked out by the Mother. Also, the film cuts out a lots of stuff such as the Baron getting drunk, and Dr Crab's collection of strange medical samples, and even a lot of the stuff from the beginning of the book (the movie basically begins with Chiyo and Satsu being bundled off into a cart and taken away, and omits a lot of the stuff such as the physical examination of the girls, etc). Of course, this happens invariably with any book that's turned into a movie. A lot has to be cut away, and what's left is altered at least a little. But the characterisations were really good. I liked the Mother XD Also, Hatsumomo was played very well. Such a spiteful geisha... Actually, Sayuri and Mameha and Pumpkin... all of them were played really well ^^ And although the movie was spoken in English, they kept in a lot of Japanese words, and occasionally (when it wasn't vital for us to understand exactly what was being said) they conversed in Japanese... it all looked very authentic and cool. And the kimonos and the cherry dances and the maiko debuts... all so beautifully done and awesome ^^ It was a very good movie. It was also just nice to spend the day with my mom n.n I think she had a good time too... it was nice.
Going to the Chinese New Year festivities put me in a drawing mood, so I started to doodle a pic of Sonic and Tails at the Chinese New Year celebrations XD Silly, I know. Anyway, I suck so badly at line art and coloring, so I don't think I'll bother continuing with it ^^; I'll just leave it as
Aside from that, not much else is new. Fara seems to be doing alright, despite Fox eating all her food @_@ Fara gave me a nice scratch yesterday :P Right down my wrist... about an inch long, and pretty deep (it bled). It hurt! Mean kitty. Oh well. 'Least it means she's still as fiery as ever O.o
I was gonna write about the stuff with my brother... stuff happened since the last time I talked about it. I learned that my brother hates me from deep down inside. Believe me... some of the things I overheard him saying about me, calmly, to my mom, while they were having a long talk... no one should ever hear such things being said about them by their own brother. I feel awful that he blames me for the fact that he can't see his dad... but it's not a decision I made. My mom doesn't want my dad here, and I feel the same way, but my brother feels as though my mom's taken my side. He can't see that my mom just can't live with my dad anymore. If anything, she's favored my brother's rights by letting my dad come here for 20 years. She's had enough. But yet, she would probably continue to let him come here if I wanted him here too... so... in a way, I suppose it _is_ at least partly my fault. My brother also feels that I should try harder to be normal. That if I wanted to, I could be 'normal'. That I deserved to be bullied at school because I didn't try hard enough to not be weird. That I'm a liar and a cheater and lazy and that I have my mom wrapped around my little finger. He honestly feels all these things. He resents me so deeply because I left school at 14. He believes that the anxiety attacks that kept me from leaving the house for those 4 years were 'fake'. That my tears were 'put on'. That everything I've ever done has been cold, calculated, and malicious. He feels like it's always been me and my mom against him and our dad. And... although many of the things he said were hurtful, very hurtful, I do feel sorry for him... but a lot of it is his own fault too. My mom can't be expected to tolerate the way he behaves. The way he calls her a d**khead and a c**t and a kn*b and even worse things... no one should speak to their own mother like that. And the way he expects money all the time, and he would try to take it if she didn't give it to him. He only ever speaks to her when he wants money or food. And when she can't afford to give him more money, he calls her names. And now it looks like he might be breaking up with his girlfriend @_@ I can see that leading to disaster... his criminal conviction came right after his last break-up... I really hope he doesn't get that violent again :\
But anyway, not to dwell ^^ Life goes on. No one's life is perfect, at least not always. There are ups and there are downs. Right now, I just need to focus on the ups, because there are plenty of those too n.n I'm pretty excited about hearing back from the universities! I hope I'll get an offer back soon so I can go visit them... I'm waiting for an offer, because most of them are a loooong way away and it'll cost a fair bit to travel there ^^; I got a receipt back from two of them so far, saying my application is being processed. One is in Southhampton, and one is all the way up in Lancashire @_@ Well, if it's one of those, it'll definitely have to be dorms XD
Lastly, I went through my LJ friends list. Don't worry, I don't take people off just because they haven't posted in a while or I haven't seen them online recently. The only people I removed are a) deleted journals/replaced journals, b) people who I know have abandoned their LJs or no longer have internet access, and c) one person who I can't maintain a friendship with anymore. Nevertheless, I could have made a mistake, so let me know if you think I accidentally removed you :P
Okay, I think that's enough for one entry, no? O.o
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Date: 2006-01-31 01:00 pm (UTC)Aww, I think Amy's adorable... ._.
What is it with people and pocky? xD; It's just chocolate!
>>>Fara seems to be doing alright, despite Fox eating all her food @_@ Fara gave me a nice scratch yesterday :P Right down my wrist... about an inch long, and pretty deep (it bled). It hurt! Mean kitty. Oh well. 'Least it means she's still as fiery as ever O.o
You don't normally bleed? -blinks- -covered in several long scratches most of which she's never noticed- xD
... Aww... ;-; -hugs- Yer brother's a jerk.
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Date: 2006-01-31 01:24 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-31 01:35 pm (UTC)Wow, sounds like you did quite a bit over at the parade. I wonder why they would incorporate Japanese customs into a Chinese celebration though, I thought the two were completely different o.O. I'd probably divulge into ever little snack shop available. The last time I got to go to Chinatown was back in Epcot in Walt Disney World. I bet Boston did something in their Chinatown but I live too far away from it to know. It's probably not big here anyways compared to overseas
Cute doodle with Sonic and Tails, I love their faces and Tails' curious expression in looking at the decorations. Nice job n.n
Man...this family feud continues to grow. You haven't done anything wrong, why he would blame you for anything is ridiculous. You and your mom both see the evil your father has done against your family and your brother refuses to listen to any reason. Maybe he should worry more about himself than you. He's got enough to worry about with school and a possible breakup and not be concerned with how you act. I'm disgusted that he keeps calling her such outrageous names, pretty pathetic. I don't know how much your mother can take of this considering the condition she's in. It'd be easy for me to say I hope you all just sit down and talk things over, but at this point that would be useless. I hope you all can find some peace over there. Be careful Jai...-_-
You have the right idea though about life, it never works out the way you want it to at times huh? Just keep a chin up and know we're always here for support n.n
Grr.
Date: 2006-01-31 01:52 pm (UTC)At least, that's the vibe I'm getting. Fortunately, I've never met your brother. ^^*
But regardless... cheer up! You're a good person, and he just wants to be mad at someone. Nothing here is your fault.
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Date: 2006-01-31 03:11 pm (UTC)That verse really does sound like Amy....she needs to grow up and go hang out with someone like Shadow, as to stop bugging our blue hero, doesn't she?
Man, it sounds like I'm the only one here who's never been to a Chinatown of any sort, and has yet to see one of these New Year parades. Now you guys are making me all curious as to what they're all about ^^; (Well, celebrating the New Year, I imagine). The snacks make it sound like...well...I'd need to bring a lot of money. The food there sounds really really good, and really tempting at that. I haven't seen that movie, but it sounds like it would be a decent investment (You and your spoilers that I had to skip over :P)
I like your doodles ^^ Tails' face always looks so cute in them, and this is no exception! Yay! n.n It's also good to hear that Fara is...well, at least as fiery as ever ^^; That's a pretty big sized scratch for a cat to give, if it was deep enough to bleed a decent ammount. Reminds me of my cat, heh.
Your brother...it sounds like he has a lot of misconceptions and assumptions about you. Of course, this means he wouldn't want to talk to you about them sincerely to try and figure them out. If he really hates you for these things, then he just needs to think for a little bit without his biases and see how it is from other points of views, such as yours. What he says about normality...eh, it's pretty silly. Anybody who tries can be 'normal,' but that's just it...they're forcing themselves if they have to try to be 'normal.' I don't think it' right to put on that faux behavior for the sake of fitting in, and rom what it sounds like, your brother isn't the one to talk about being normal. Again, if he thinks the issues you had at 14 were fake then he needs to get over it. 4 years is a long time to fake anxiety; he should see that...and if he can't realize the problems he's creating by acting like such a jerk, then there's almost no hope. But I hope, anyway, that it doesn't get worse. If he goes back to criminal activity...eeehh =/
The universities sure seem to be taking some time to get their responses back to you...but I likely just don't remember how long I had to wait. That was probably a long time x.x Let's hope for the best, woo!
And like I said, it's never enough! ;)
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Date: 2006-01-31 03:43 pm (UTC)Are we still on to kill the pink pest? XD Anything by Toybox is a "bit" too happy for me personally... c.c
I've commented on your brother before so I don't need to do it again really, my thoughts haven't changed, and everyone else will have more than their share to say I'm sure. I just hope he'll leave you and your mom the hell alone soon... The more I hear, the more I wish I was there do actually do something about it... I hope for his sake too that he doesn't do anything stupid...
*looks at your LJ friends and frowns*
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Date: 2006-02-01 01:50 pm (UTC)