Bleh

[flyboy_fox]

Egads, migraines suck x.x Wish I knew why I've been getting them so often lately. Not to mention this one lasted 12 hours as opposed to the usual 6 (still not totally gone x.x). The worst is, eh... they waste whole days. Friday = gone. Yay. Pff.

Anyway, I guess I've been a little stressed lately. I'm kinda envious of everyone writing their Xmas lists and decorating their homes right now... My family's financial state is dire. My mom earns about £1,500 per month. Paying for this apartment AND our home back in London (where my brother and dad are living) is costing £4,000+ per month. We are eating so much into her retirement fund, it's scary. We've sold the house in London, but my mom is seriously considering not buying out here. Dunno what's gonna happen yet, it's all a bit scary... and my mom is stressed with not knowing how to spend Xmas with me and my brother when we live on opposite sides of the UK *sigh* So basically, Xmas isn't gonna exist this year. No gifts, no decorations, no tree.. nothing ._. I feel selfish for feeling so down about it... but I love Xmas and I love having a tree and decorations and exchanging gifts... and I'm HORRIBLY jealous of everyone who's gonna have that opportunity this year.

But yeah, I'm a lot better off than a lot of people, I know that. But I also feel bad because I have NO money and therefore can't even send greetings cards this year ._. I've been trying to get a job ever since we moved here, but Weston-super-Mare = jobless. Aesthetically, it's a beautiful place to live. Economically... dead fish in the water. Argh.

So yeah, I'm worried. Real worried. Money = non-existent, and my mom is seriously depressing herself thinking that moving here was a BAAAD idea and that it was the biggest mistake of her life. Stress. Guess it's no wonder I'm getting migraines, heh.

Comments

[shadowdingo.livejournal.com]

Aww... poor you.

Man, I wish I could do something to help... but I'm just here in little old Wales.

Sorry to hear about your bad financial state. >_<

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Aww, s'okay Custard... thanks for your concern :) and I'm hoping there'll be enough seasonal cheer online to make up for the lack of it here at home ^^

[naoe-riki.livejournal.com]

£4,000+ !! I don't understand, how is it actually possible for you to pay for it if your mother only earns £1,500.. :(

P.S. Hehe, I only earn £200 per month, but that's a half-time job and with taxes already deducted.. <_<

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Well, she's paying from her pension fund :\ I wish I could find work, then I could at least help... I used to earn £800 per month back in London. But there's just NO work out here in the west.

[leonskennedy827.livejournal.com]

Oh dear...sorry for writing about all that in my LJ entry, don't mean to make ya feel bad ;____;

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Aww, it's alright Leon, not your fault ^_^ I want my friends to have good happy Xmases... I just wish I could have that for myself too. But it could be a lot worse, so I shouldn't complain.

[sphix.livejournal.com]

Aw, I can't believe how much has been happening to you! It's ridiculous! No wonder these migraines have been coming so fast... ;__;

What do you want for Christmas, Jai?

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

What do I want for Christmas? Heh... a lot. None of it possible. Just to be rid of all the stress, I guess. But seriously, just having online friends around is something :) I know you've got a lot of stress on you, too. More than me, really. So it means a lot that you care :)

[sphix.livejournal.com]

I really don't have all that much stress. In fact, there are only a fair few that have genuine, life-and-death stress. But it always seems so much worse than it really is... But, really, what do you want for Christmas? I think you deserve at least a small semblance of the holiday spirit.

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Well, I'd be happy enough just to have my online friends wish me a happy christmas on the day, really ^_^

[sphix.livejournal.com]

Well, then, your wish is my command! ;D

[tallycola.livejournal.com]

Oh I don't know, I'm sure if you posted an Amazon wishlist or something you might get a few little surprises. :)

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Aww, I'm sure ^^ But I wouldn't want anyone to get me stuff when I have no money to get them anything in return :\

[izzyneko.livejournal.com]

I'm a bit late in this, but I would just like to let you know that I know how you feel. It's no different in the states for some families...

My mother is a single parent, struggling between the morgage and multiple bills, making $2500 a month after taxes, about. The morgage is $1100ish and all the bills added up bring her above her budget... So she has a nasty habit of going to the casino. There wasn't a tree last year, and the only gift we had was eachother and our good health. Looks to be the same this year.

I also need a job, but I don't have justified reasons like you for not having one.

Anyway, be strong... Things have got to get better, even if it takes years.

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

I see you added me. Therefore I have added you back :)

Thanks for the kind words. I know I'm not alone in my situation... and at least I have my health, and half a family. That's more than many people have, and I am indeed thankful despite how much I may whine ^^;

[izzyneko.livejournal.com]

Couldn't help it, I've always had a soft spot for miles. :3

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm always very happy to have new LJ friends! :)