Zoombayay agowaya...?
Jan. 26th, 2006 04:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flyboy_foxWell, first off I'd like to say thanks to everyone who replied to my last entry ^_^ When I'm feeling down like that, you guys remind me that even though I don't have any 'IRL' friends right now, I have a LOT of friends and I'm not truly alone n.n Sometimes just that is enough to make me feel better. So thanks. And sorry for being all whiny and stuff :P Also... sorry if I didn't reply to your comment (I felt like I was saying the same things over and over ^^;), but I read all of them and they all meant a lot. Thanks again, all of you ^^
So, I'm feeling better today I think. I got my UCAS letter saying that my application has been sent off to all 6 Universities that I applied for, and now that I have an application number and a personal ID number, I can track my apps online and find out the decisions as soon as they're made ^^ Nothing like a 10-digit number to make you feel like a significant individual :P Hello, I'm 1004475797, who are you?
I was thinking about what to do with my immediate time, and my mom suggested volunteering. She mentioned The Heritage Trust, which does a lot of outdoor preservation work etc, so I might look into that. There's other volunteer bureaus too, so I'll definitely do some investigating. Also, I need to go out and get my hair cut at some point :P It's so long I can almost pull it back in a ponytail! XD If I want to stop feeling like a bum, perhaps I should make an effort to stop looking like one :P
I was also thinking a lot about the future - what I want to do, where I want to go, what I picture myself doing a few years from now... I think things will feel a lot more fulfilling once I'm at University. Sometimes I feel like I've already passed my sell-by date... that I'm too old. That's ridiculous! I'm only 21! I have my whole life ahead of me. I need to remind myself of that. I'm still young. I haven't used up most of my life already, there's still SO much ahead! I just have to use it, make the most of it, and stop clinging on to past regrets. I can move forward, but only if I let go of the past. I have a hard time forgiving myself for past failures, but it's something I need to do, or else life WILL pass me by. I only have one shot at this life, but thankfully I haven't left it too late - YET. Just gotta move onward and upwards now ^^
Jei was talking about maybe getting an internship in the UK when she finishes her art course at Du Cret ^^ That would be AWESOME. I'd still be at Uni, so it would fit in well. Perhaps we could even go back to America together afterwards and I could find work there. I'd love to be able to see her more often... if she was on an internship here, we'd maybe even get to live together! But if not, we could at least see each other on weekends, which is HUGELY better than the once or twice a year that I see her now :P
I WILL get a good job. I'm determined to have my own bi-plane one day. I don't care if I have to live in a shack, I WILL have my own 'plane! XD I've always wanted my own little airplane. A while ago I had my heart set on having an F16 Fighting Falcon jet, but even then it wasn't what I _really_ wanted. Don't get me wrong, jets are UBER cool. But I don't want a fighter. I just want something I can cruise around in n.n; A bi-plane would be perfect, even if they were mainly warplanes in the past too. I'm determined to get one. I'll get my bi-plane licence, just you wait and see! Which reminds me... that bi-plane flight/lesson thing for my birthday FINALLY got rescheduled :P It's in JULY!! Gah. But at least I'll get to have it and, hey, the weather should be good ^^
Meh, I do wish the days would hurry up and get longer again though. 4:30pm sunsets are very depressing >P
So, I'm feeling better today I think. I got my UCAS letter saying that my application has been sent off to all 6 Universities that I applied for, and now that I have an application number and a personal ID number, I can track my apps online and find out the decisions as soon as they're made ^^ Nothing like a 10-digit number to make you feel like a significant individual :P Hello, I'm 1004475797, who are you?
I was thinking about what to do with my immediate time, and my mom suggested volunteering. She mentioned The Heritage Trust, which does a lot of outdoor preservation work etc, so I might look into that. There's other volunteer bureaus too, so I'll definitely do some investigating. Also, I need to go out and get my hair cut at some point :P It's so long I can almost pull it back in a ponytail! XD If I want to stop feeling like a bum, perhaps I should make an effort to stop looking like one :P
I was also thinking a lot about the future - what I want to do, where I want to go, what I picture myself doing a few years from now... I think things will feel a lot more fulfilling once I'm at University. Sometimes I feel like I've already passed my sell-by date... that I'm too old. That's ridiculous! I'm only 21! I have my whole life ahead of me. I need to remind myself of that. I'm still young. I haven't used up most of my life already, there's still SO much ahead! I just have to use it, make the most of it, and stop clinging on to past regrets. I can move forward, but only if I let go of the past. I have a hard time forgiving myself for past failures, but it's something I need to do, or else life WILL pass me by. I only have one shot at this life, but thankfully I haven't left it too late - YET. Just gotta move onward and upwards now ^^
Jei was talking about maybe getting an internship in the UK when she finishes her art course at Du Cret ^^ That would be AWESOME. I'd still be at Uni, so it would fit in well. Perhaps we could even go back to America together afterwards and I could find work there. I'd love to be able to see her more often... if she was on an internship here, we'd maybe even get to live together! But if not, we could at least see each other on weekends, which is HUGELY better than the once or twice a year that I see her now :P
I WILL get a good job. I'm determined to have my own bi-plane one day. I don't care if I have to live in a shack, I WILL have my own 'plane! XD I've always wanted my own little airplane. A while ago I had my heart set on having an F16 Fighting Falcon jet, but even then it wasn't what I _really_ wanted. Don't get me wrong, jets are UBER cool. But I don't want a fighter. I just want something I can cruise around in n.n; A bi-plane would be perfect, even if they were mainly warplanes in the past too. I'm determined to get one. I'll get my bi-plane licence, just you wait and see! Which reminds me... that bi-plane flight/lesson thing for my birthday FINALLY got rescheduled :P It's in JULY!! Gah. But at least I'll get to have it and, hey, the weather should be good ^^
Meh, I do wish the days would hurry up and get longer again though. 4:30pm sunsets are very depressing >P
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Date: 2006-01-26 04:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-26 06:34 pm (UTC)You have the right attitude on how to approach your life, you're still very young and you'll have many more big experiences coming up in the next few years. Let things that happened to you in the past stay in the past. It's done, over, kaput! Hold your head up high and don't every stop trying! n.n
I hope everything works out for you and Jei in seeing each other. I don't know what they would offer down there for work in New Jersey but I'm sure there's plenty to offer here in the good old USA.
I didn't know you had wanted to get your own plane, I just knew you liked flying in em. Start saving up then for one. I wonder how much they cost these days...
About time they rescheduled your lesson, I was wondering whatever happened with that. Took them long enough to give you a make-up date :P
Sunsets this early are pretty annoying. I love seeing the sun still out at 9:00 PM in June, much better time of the year. No snow, no cold weather, lots of sun, only 4 more months to go ^^
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Date: 2006-01-26 07:24 pm (UTC)I hope you'll talk to some of us again soon though, I miss hearing from ya. *huggles*
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Date: 2006-01-26 09:53 pm (UTC)And painful.
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Date: 2006-01-29 12:58 am (UTC)The 10 digit number sounds perfect for us unique people. I mean, you're you own little number, not like anyone else! Except for when the numbers repeat themselves in years to come. Then you're just like that other guy from Central London, right? :P
Yup, you've still got qutie awhile left in your life ^^ And hopefully Jei will get an internship overseas. That would be uber-cool!
Yay for the bi-plane lesson! Oh, I'm certain you'll get one too someday. You better take me for a ride sometime ;)
Ok, I'm off again. Sorry for missing this one! I dunno how I did x.x