~So tell me are you the Wizard of Oz?~

[flyboy_fox]

I got tagged by psychicninja, so... may as well.

"Once tagged by this entry, the assignment is to write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. Then, pick six of your friends and tag them; no tag backs. This explanation should be included."

Okie. I'll try to think of things at least some of you don't know about me, but I tend to be pretty open so I dunno how easy that will be... ^^;

1) I used to be a total old-school Trekkie. I had poseable figurines of the whole main crew, a model Enterprise, battery-operated phaser, tricorder and scanner, and even a life-size replica command chair. I went to Trekker conventions, and had the old-school uniforms... the command one (Kirk), the engineering one (Scotty), and the science one (Spock). It was my first major fandom, and the first one I got into online, back when I was on dial-up internet and AOL was new. I roleplayed, and discovered fanfiction for the first time. And so the oddity that is me was unleashed on the World Wide Web :D

2) I have a secret and rather embarrassing little dream (not a secret anymore ^^;) - sometimes I wish I was a popstar. You know, a pop superstar, on the stage with thousands of adoring fans, living the high life. It's so weird, because it's not like me at all... I'm not extroverted at all. And it's always a _pop_ star, not a rock star etc... I don't know what's up with that. It's incredibly cheesy and not like me at all, but there it is although the closest I ever got to pop stardom was when a girl called Rachel cajoled me into playing 'Ken' in a highschool talent-show performance of Aqua's 'Barbie Girl' @_@

3) There's one or two things I really wish I could talk openly about in my LiveJournal. I've considered making a secondary LJ, locked from everyone, where I could write these things and talk about them without being afraid, but I don't see the point in that. If I can't share my thoughts and feelings with my friends, there's no point in writing them down at all. They can continue to live in my head, and with the very select few I've been able to tell. Perhaps in time I'll be totally open with everyone, but I'm 99.9% open, so I guess I shouldn't feel too bad.

4) I'm... gender dysphoric? That means I identify with a different gender than I physically am. I'm not an extreme case, since I don't tend to think about myself in gender terms at all and I'd say I'm rather androgynous. Perhaps a better term for me is that I'm an androgyne (look it up on Wikipedia :P) or genderqueer. Depending what I wear, I could probably get away with being either gender ^^; I try to be fairly open about it, and I don't hold back from showing pictures of myself in my journal. But I don't tend to go through the tedious explaining every time I make a new LJ friend, so if this is the first you've heard about it from me, then I'msorryandpleasedon'tkillme ^^;;;

5) I'm seriously thinking of getting a small twin-tail tattoo on my lower back. Nobody would ever see it since I never wear anything that shows my back, but I'd know it was there and that'd make me plenty happy enough ^^;

6) I sponsor an 8-year-old Algerian boy called Anxhelin via World Vision. He's adorable. I really can't afford to be sponsoring him right now when I don't have monies, and I've gotten myself into the red paying for stuff for him, but I just can't help it... It'd be cool if I could visit him and his family one day. I really hope the money I'm sending makes a difference.

Okay, well, I'm not tagging anyone 'cause... I dunno, you guys might not wanna do it. But you're free to steal the meme if you want and say I tagged you XD

And finally, a random meme stolen from helios_inferno (I'm his grandpa apparently O.o):

If Your LJ Friends Were Family LiveJournal Username Favorite Colour Your Age Your Spouse Is psychicninja Your Mother Is superkarl Your Father Is phspopular2002 Your Sister Is laurie_chan Your Brother Is terras_wrath Your Grandma Is glowingmalice Your Grandpa Is shadow64 The Family Pet phspopular2002 This Fun Quiz created by Nat at BlogQuiz.Net

Capricorn Horoscope at DailyHoroscopes.Biz

Yeeeah... O.o;; And I'm out.

Comments

[toysthatbreak.livejournal.com]

It's better to write things down than to hold them in, even if no one finds out. Did you know that you can mark journal entries private, so that no one except you can see them?

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Yes, I know about private entries. But if only I can read them, and I already know all of what I've written (obviously), what's the point in writing it all up? ^^;

[toysthatbreak.livejournal.com]

Writing is as much discovery as it is exposition. By trying to put something in words, you have to look at it from the prespective of someone outside your own head, even if that someone is basically you. By putting them in a new form, you look at your thoughts in new ways. Plus, it's getting it off your chest. It's making those thoughts real, putting them in the outside world, even if only a small microcosm thereof. It can be very theraputic, to just get that out there, somewhere where you can see it.

Give it a shot. If not in a private journal, then on a piece of paper that you tear up afterward or something.

Plus, it's nice to have a record of the thoughts you had in the past. I love looking back on my old journals, and I wish I still had the URLs to them. I wouldn't want anyone I know now to see what I wrote on them... but sometimes I like to look back and see who I used to be, and still am.

Of course, I'm an English major, I would say stuff like this.

[lunarocean777.livejournal.com]

Don't listen to the English major! Go Engineers! XD

Sorry, I had to say it. I think it's sorta like an oath we pledge to subconsciously when picking engineering :P

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Well, if you engineers have any advice for me, I'm all ears :P

And... what an adorable eevee icon! ^__^

[lunarocean777.livejournal.com]

I dunno about actual advice regarding that, heh. The point does stand that sometimes it's nice to just write things down to get em out there, cause you'll likely end up writing about things you had no idea were even connected to your initial thought. However, if these are things that have been in your mind for quite awhile, you're not likely to forget them, and have likely deliberated multiple times already on the issues, so it's probable that you pretty much have your thoughts cleared on em. On things like that, writing down doesn't do as much as it will on more spur-of-the-moment actions. Let's also be honest - we typically write here so others can read what's going on. Otherwise we wouldn't use LJ. We'd use something like Word, or a (gasp) actual journal. We want to be able to talk with our friends about things whilte not being so public; that's why we're on LJ to begin with. So, essentially I'm not saying anything aside from what you already knew :P

Wonderful advice, eh? :P But it's not a requirement for us to have advice to tell others not to listen to english or business majors, however XD Would probably help, though ^^;

Other stuff, I think I already knew. Certainly #4 - hooray for being in the same boat!

So we all have crazy dreams, hehe. No need to be embarrassed about it; you should onyl feel that way if you dreamt that you were a sell-out like so many of them ;)

As for the tattoo - by all means, if you want to, go for it. It's not one of those 'Look at me, I'm so badass' things. Not like you'd be in a biker gang all of a sudden for it. Just keep in mind that it'll eventually get all weird looking, at least from what I hear.

I bet the boy and his family appreciate what you do more than can be expressed ^_^ That's awfully sweet of you, Jai.



Veee! ^_^ Thanks, I realllly like it. I got it from a site that....well, lets just say most don't know I go there ^^;;

[psychicninja.livejournal.com]

I'm a spouse. That's ever so slightly frightening. O_o; XD

[helios-inferno.livejournal.com]

yay for trekkyness!!

Also...
You could try making a friends group for things you can only be open too a highly select few, to be honest I have such a group as well for my more "darker" thoughts in life or personal things I simply do not wish to tell everyone, mainly because I foresee some friends generally getting way too upset over certain things/thoughts in life or would just not understand/accept certain things of me.

Either way, even if some may not accept everything, the more mature group will either say so or ignore such posts.
But generally, it's easy to figure out which are more "open minded" or accepting of things, even if they are contradictory or otherwise different to their own.
That's simply a matter of knowing your friends, and with those you trust you can make a friends group to which you open up and write such more personal posts.

Otherwise, at the very least you can always just hit up those friends you trust enough or believe to be accepting enough to talk about it with them on a personal level.
On a side note though, if you ever bring up anything of such nature with me...you should be aware that I generally get interested or curious about many things and am likely to ask a lot of qeustions. Even if I do give advice when needed, it is generally the more "iritating and curious" part of me.

[helios-inferno.livejournal.com]

coming to think of it....
I think I missed the post in which you gave away your adress..
At least I believe so, I think I saw it but didn't react on it as I was too short on time at the moment..

please remind me to dig it up, to post my adress or something and get yours..
I'm such a fuzzball.. n.n

[defenestrate-me.livejournal.com]

In reference to point four, does this mean you want to be a nullo?

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

I have no idea what a nullo is, but if it refers doing anything permenant to various parts of my anatomy, then likely no O.o