~Straight up, tell me...~
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flyboy_foxWhy do certain songs remind me of characters and pairings that I don't even like? n.n;
Breaking Benjamin's 'Blow Me Away' reminds me of Shadow.
Lene Marlin's 'Unforgivable Sinner' reminds me of the end of Sonic X's Season 2 with Cosmo.
Paula Abdul's 'Straight Up' reminds me of Amy. I'm not really sure why O.o (Also, the opening lines of the verses have the same bars as the beginning of Corneria(?)'s theme on StarFox64 o.o)
And Paula Abdul (again XD)'s 'Opposites Attract' makes me think of Sonic/Sally.
I guess I just see the potential in songs, how they could represent certain personalities or ideas. And despite 'Straight Up' making me think of Amy shaking her thang (eww n.n;), I'm hooked on that song... even if it is way cheesy ^^; I can forgive the cheesiness of almost all 80s music because... well... 80s music rocks.
Changing the subject,
I'm REALLY worried about my mom. I think she might have some sort of breakdown soon. What she's having to do at the moment:
* Full time stressful job as an Advisory Teacher (meaning she visits schools to help them get up to OFSTED level, plus she trains the teachers, runs seminars, and does hands-on teaching with preschool kids too)
* Part time job as an Open University tutor, marking assignments from home and meeting with students up to 150 miles away to give them tutorials
* Financially supporting TWO households (this apartment plus the house back in London), which is putting her over £1,000 overdrawn every MONTH
* Keeping my brother, who is still in London, in check from afar by sending him money for his keep and trying to keep him in college and off the streets etc (hah!)
* Trying to sell our house in London, which hasn't been successful, and now trying to switch over to a new estate agent as well as arrange all the visits etc from afar
* Looking into properties here, trying to work out which part of North Somerset we should live in (preferably somewhere away from the huge flood risk Weston-super-Mare constantly has hanging over it ^^;)
* Dealing with my incompetent idiot of a dad who can't even follow simple instructions on the phone (like "forward us mail, but not obvious junkmail" - how hard is that? x.o) and who had no way of paying my mom back the £600 he owes her for the flight here because he's a pathetic self-absorbed fool x.o
... in other words, she's exhausted ;_; She's not sleeping, she looks awful, she's depressed and cries a lot especially at the beginning of the week, she won't talk, she just sits in her chair for hours after she gets home, staring out of the window. She says coming here was a huge mistake and she can't cope... but her job in London is gone now, so she can't go back, and any lesser job would have even less money, and since she's supporting us all singlehandedly, she NEEDS the money. Not to mention the fact that she's 57... it was amazing that she got this job so close to retirement age, but if she quit and didn't get a reference, no one else would take her on in a high-paying job now...
What gets to me most is that I can't help her. I mean, I do what I can... cook some meals, wash up, do any chores like taking out the trash etc... but I can't take any of the strain of her job and selling the house and managing the accounts and keeping my brother and dad from becoming homeless or dead x.o And as far as money goes, Weston-super-Mare has one of the lowest employment figures in the country ._. WAY too many people moving here, not NEARLY enough jobs, especially part time or off season. Obviously in the summer, being a tourist resort, there's more. But autumn is kind of a dead zone. There are some shops offering Xmas work, but that's not for a while yet. I really need work so I can bring in at least a little money to help my mom out... it scares me to see her so ill and tired all the time.
Anyway, that's about it, really. Aside from the fact that my Winamp keeps crashing whenever I try to play another song after the one I open it with (which can be any song) :\ Maybe a restart will help. Stupid Winamp... >P
Edit: Nope, same problem x.x Upgrading didn't help either... looks like I'm gonna hafta do a clean reinstall ;_;
Edit 2: I think the clean install fixed it ^^; I hope. Now I've gotta replace those buggy .dll files x.o At least I backed up my Speed Highway skin ^^
Edit 3: Oh yeah, have to fiddle around with the equalizer to get it the way I want it again too :P I'm very picky x.x
Breaking Benjamin's 'Blow Me Away' reminds me of Shadow.
Lene Marlin's 'Unforgivable Sinner' reminds me of the end of Sonic X's Season 2 with Cosmo.
Paula Abdul's 'Straight Up' reminds me of Amy. I'm not really sure why O.o (Also, the opening lines of the verses have the same bars as the beginning of Corneria(?)'s theme on StarFox64 o.o)
And Paula Abdul (again XD)'s 'Opposites Attract' makes me think of Sonic/Sally.
I guess I just see the potential in songs, how they could represent certain personalities or ideas. And despite 'Straight Up' making me think of Amy shaking her thang (eww n.n;), I'm hooked on that song... even if it is way cheesy ^^; I can forgive the cheesiness of almost all 80s music because... well... 80s music rocks.
Changing the subject,
I'm REALLY worried about my mom. I think she might have some sort of breakdown soon. What she's having to do at the moment:
* Full time stressful job as an Advisory Teacher (meaning she visits schools to help them get up to OFSTED level, plus she trains the teachers, runs seminars, and does hands-on teaching with preschool kids too)
* Part time job as an Open University tutor, marking assignments from home and meeting with students up to 150 miles away to give them tutorials
* Financially supporting TWO households (this apartment plus the house back in London), which is putting her over £1,000 overdrawn every MONTH
* Keeping my brother, who is still in London, in check from afar by sending him money for his keep and trying to keep him in college and off the streets etc (hah!)
* Trying to sell our house in London, which hasn't been successful, and now trying to switch over to a new estate agent as well as arrange all the visits etc from afar
* Looking into properties here, trying to work out which part of North Somerset we should live in (preferably somewhere away from the huge flood risk Weston-super-Mare constantly has hanging over it ^^;)
* Dealing with my incompetent idiot of a dad who can't even follow simple instructions on the phone (like "forward us mail, but not obvious junkmail" - how hard is that? x.o) and who had no way of paying my mom back the £600 he owes her for the flight here because he's a pathetic self-absorbed fool x.o
... in other words, she's exhausted ;_; She's not sleeping, she looks awful, she's depressed and cries a lot especially at the beginning of the week, she won't talk, she just sits in her chair for hours after she gets home, staring out of the window. She says coming here was a huge mistake and she can't cope... but her job in London is gone now, so she can't go back, and any lesser job would have even less money, and since she's supporting us all singlehandedly, she NEEDS the money. Not to mention the fact that she's 57... it was amazing that she got this job so close to retirement age, but if she quit and didn't get a reference, no one else would take her on in a high-paying job now...
What gets to me most is that I can't help her. I mean, I do what I can... cook some meals, wash up, do any chores like taking out the trash etc... but I can't take any of the strain of her job and selling the house and managing the accounts and keeping my brother and dad from becoming homeless or dead x.o And as far as money goes, Weston-super-Mare has one of the lowest employment figures in the country ._. WAY too many people moving here, not NEARLY enough jobs, especially part time or off season. Obviously in the summer, being a tourist resort, there's more. But autumn is kind of a dead zone. There are some shops offering Xmas work, but that's not for a while yet. I really need work so I can bring in at least a little money to help my mom out... it scares me to see her so ill and tired all the time.
Anyway, that's about it, really. Aside from the fact that my Winamp keeps crashing whenever I try to play another song after the one I open it with (which can be any song) :\ Maybe a restart will help. Stupid Winamp... >P
Edit: Nope, same problem x.x Upgrading didn't help either... looks like I'm gonna hafta do a clean reinstall ;_;
Edit 2: I think the clean install fixed it ^^; I hope. Now I've gotta replace those buggy .dll files x.o At least I backed up my Speed Highway skin ^^
Edit 3: Oh yeah, have to fiddle around with the equalizer to get it the way I want it again too :P I'm very picky x.x
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Date: 2006-10-05 07:10 pm (UTC)::Hugs:: I'm sure she's strong with what she's been through. I hope you'll both be ok until things smooth over.
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Date: 2006-10-05 08:29 pm (UTC)*snuggles*
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Date: 2006-10-05 11:30 pm (UTC)Have you talked with her at any point?
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Date: 2006-10-05 08:42 pm (UTC)And, just... wow. That's so much of a load on her... Keep letting her know that you love her and appreciate everything she does for you and everyone else. We men don't particularly know how much those simple words strengthen the opposite sex...
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