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flyboy_foxI'm trying my hardest to keep it together, but any time I stop for even just a moment, it all floods over me, drowning me in what-ifs and sickening dread. If it's like this for me, I can't imagine how it is for my mum. She has to wait until Monday July 4th before she'll know how invasive her cancer is and what the treatment options for her are.
My mum is an incredibly strong person, one of the strongest I know. But I know that she's petrified. She's a very rational person, but she's getting a little superstitious, talking about how she had that car crash a couple months ago and now this. She's also pretty convinced that the prognosis is grim because the doctor apparently didn't seem too hopeful... he said the lumps were pretty deep in the tissue and that the presence of the third one on her other breast means it's likely to have spread further... Also he got in the palliative nurse from the hospice to talk to her. Classy. But anyway, there's no sense in panicking at this stage. We won't know the full story until July 4th. My mum did ask me to go with her to that appointment, however, despite her insistence of going alone to the last one, which is quite telling of her state of mind. All the hugs and cups of tea in the world aren't enough for my mum right now ;_;
Heh, I just got a call from my brother. He found out about the cancer last night and now he's driving down from London today with his girlfriend Alix to spend a few days here on a surprise visit. Bless his li'l cotton socks.
Anyway, one final little bit of happy news: Jei finally got her degree results in and she got a First! She now has a Bachelor of the Arts Model Making Degree with First Class Honours. I am so proud of her. We were both expecting a high 2:1 but she got an 82% on her final extended major project (the ball-jointed dolls based on the two main characters from our 'Calamity!' steampunk webcomic) which pushed her final grade average up to a 1:1. Both her mum AND my mum screamed when they heard the news XD It was nice to have some great news after these harrowing few days.
Stay well, everyone.
My mum is an incredibly strong person, one of the strongest I know. But I know that she's petrified. She's a very rational person, but she's getting a little superstitious, talking about how she had that car crash a couple months ago and now this. She's also pretty convinced that the prognosis is grim because the doctor apparently didn't seem too hopeful... he said the lumps were pretty deep in the tissue and that the presence of the third one on her other breast means it's likely to have spread further... Also he got in the palliative nurse from the hospice to talk to her. Classy. But anyway, there's no sense in panicking at this stage. We won't know the full story until July 4th. My mum did ask me to go with her to that appointment, however, despite her insistence of going alone to the last one, which is quite telling of her state of mind. All the hugs and cups of tea in the world aren't enough for my mum right now ;_;
Heh, I just got a call from my brother. He found out about the cancer last night and now he's driving down from London today with his girlfriend Alix to spend a few days here on a surprise visit. Bless his li'l cotton socks.
Anyway, one final little bit of happy news: Jei finally got her degree results in and she got a First! She now has a Bachelor of the Arts Model Making Degree with First Class Honours. I am so proud of her. We were both expecting a high 2:1 but she got an 82% on her final extended major project (the ball-jointed dolls based on the two main characters from our 'Calamity!' steampunk webcomic) which pushed her final grade average up to a 1:1. Both her mum AND my mum screamed when they heard the news XD It was nice to have some great news after these harrowing few days.
Stay well, everyone.
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Date: 2011-06-25 08:49 pm (UTC)Doesn't sound good about your mother's cancer there. I guess the best thing you can do is expect the worst but hope for the best. There'll be a solution to this one way or another, you'll see. Shadow sends you his best and a friendly pat on the shoulder (and that's a lot for him) - but no seriously. If you need to talk at any time I'm here for you.
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Date: 2011-06-26 01:19 am (UTC)I guess I can't say anything Sukishadow already said. But if you need to talk to me or my crew, you have my Skype. You can buzz me at any time and I'll do absolutely everything in my power to help you through this thing. Okay?
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Date: 2011-06-27 10:21 am (UTC)super-mud has good facilities.
u need to be thinking about providing support for her, as well as for your self.
so i will remind you that all of us here, on LJ, and else where who know you are care about you, and your family are here to listen, talk and help. so i remind u that YOUR support network is solid; we're all here 4u.
support is there for you, and for your mum.
u alex shud consider the sertraline again as a short term solution- in the short term it DOES alleviate anxiety and stress and may well make u better to deal with situation. come off it when ur on top again.
perhaps u cud utilise the NHS fast track counselling
they can equip u with information and tools to help you, help yourself, J, J and mum.
at this stage is feeling scared is normal, but u r a decisive, asertive girl, i know that.
pull those trousers up, which we know u wear ne way lol, help take charge, to free your mum from some of the burden. for her to see u equiped and in charge will make her calmer. her anxiety afterall is not about herself but about her brood, thats how mums work.
take a lead here: contact McMillan cancer support. they are excellent. they have a help line, lots of info on their website.
thus initially u might want to do some thing practical, so i wud also recommend an roganisation called 'bacup' but this is regional.
I cannot promote highly enough getting into the counselling.
Dequalinium is an anti-cancer agent found in the throat tablet, Dequacaine. They are throat soothers, but also found to be anti-cancer. Buy them over the counter.
Some SSRI's make anti-cancer drugs LESS effective; if mum takes them, investigate swapping to tricycles.
Vitamin A suppresses cancer metathesis.
Hit 1kg of carrots in a smoothy. Do until skin goes orange.
Cut out much protein from diet; cancer cannot grow without protein.
Super strong coffee - its not the caffeine, but some of the other xanthines present are 'anti-metabolites' for DNA nucleobases- cancer tries to use these instead of typical nucleobases and division fails.
NOT STEAMED coffee. filter coffee
HRT can promote cancer growth; if on HRT discuss. Anti-estrogens (estrogen antagonists) are a hot topic.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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Date: 2011-06-28 12:05 pm (UTC)Congratulations on Jei getting her degree! :D I'm so happy for you guys. <3
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Date: 2011-06-30 12:17 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2011-06-30 12:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-06-30 12:21 pm (UTC)It means a lot to know there's people here for my mum and I.
As far as the other stuff goes, my mum is already off her HRT. The cancer nurse told her to stop immediately. Sadly that means she's suffering the effects of the delayed menopause, but it had to be done...
I'm still back-and-forthing about taking meds myself to get through it. I may end up doing it; not sure yet.
I'll bear everything else in mind. Thanks again so much ♥