I am so boring and predictable XD
Sep. 19th, 2010 01:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flyboy_foxUgh. I start my new job tomorrow, 19 hours from now. I just wanted a nice peaceful weekend. But Miles sure took care of that, thankyouverymuch Miles >_>; Wtf was that all about? But I don't think I'll go into too much detail and bore everyone again with fucked up shenanigans...
I get the feeling that I should stop talking about Scourge and Miles (or at least, the headmate ones) in my journal, or at least do it less, or maybe even fix up a filter. Probably the last idea, actually. I've never wanted to lock any of my posts - what you see is what you get. But I do talk/rant/bitch about Miles (and occasionally Green over there) a LOT. I can't help it, since the past few months have been kinda shaped by our interactions with them and the crazy shit they get up to. Having a muse/soulbond/headmate/alter... thing in your head for the first time ever is a pretty life-changing concept and I'm still as intrigued now as I was when it first started happening. I'm getting used to it and understanding it better, but fuck, it's still the most crazy thing that has ever happened to me, and when another 'entity' is living half of my life (well, perhaps a little less than 'half', but still a large chunk of it), then naturally that's a big part of what I wanna journal about. Y'know, since I blog about my life and stuff that happens to me, and that is definitely a big part of it ^^;
BUT, I am also very aware of the fact that the people who read my LJ do so because they're MY friends, not Miles'. While I'm not deluded enough to think that too many people care too much about what I do, think and feel, I do believe that they care more about MY life than that of another person who just happens to reside here. I mean, if I'd started blogging almost exclusively about, say, a new roommate, I'm sure everyone would get bored pretty quick.
However, I'm not gonna want to stop typing this shit up any time soon. It's kinda cathartic and I do appreciate the feedback I get from the few people who do seem at least slightly interested. For the sake of everyone else, I've already been putting crazy headmate stuff under a cut so only things directly relevant to me are on full view. But perhaps it would be better if I whacked out a filter just for anyone bored enough to actually be interested in my headmate drama and kept it all off everyone else's friends pages?
I don't know. I just know that I start to feel guilty and tedious every time I mention Miles in a post of mine and I can picture the collective rolling of eyes when my f-list sees I'm talking about that again XD Also I don't really know how Miles feels about me always talking about him. I think he'd probably prefer me to stop. But if he's gonna be there then he's gonna get blogged about one way or another... especially when drama and wangst are involved >_>;
So yeah, feedback would be nice. I know that it's my journal and I should be able to type whatever the hell I want in it... but I also don't wanna alienate everyone or bore you all to death, so... heh. Maybe I just have a major case of USI for even thinking this is an issue... but yeah. Tell me, honestly (no feelings will be hurt), should I shut up about Miles (or at least create a filter for my posts about him and Scourge)?
I get the feeling that I should stop talking about Scourge and Miles (or at least, the headmate ones) in my journal, or at least do it less, or maybe even fix up a filter. Probably the last idea, actually. I've never wanted to lock any of my posts - what you see is what you get. But I do talk/rant/bitch about Miles (and occasionally Green over there) a LOT. I can't help it, since the past few months have been kinda shaped by our interactions with them and the crazy shit they get up to. Having a muse/soulbond/headmate/alter... thing in your head for the first time ever is a pretty life-changing concept and I'm still as intrigued now as I was when it first started happening. I'm getting used to it and understanding it better, but fuck, it's still the most crazy thing that has ever happened to me, and when another 'entity' is living half of my life (well, perhaps a little less than 'half', but still a large chunk of it), then naturally that's a big part of what I wanna journal about. Y'know, since I blog about my life and stuff that happens to me, and that is definitely a big part of it ^^;
BUT, I am also very aware of the fact that the people who read my LJ do so because they're MY friends, not Miles'. While I'm not deluded enough to think that too many people care too much about what I do, think and feel, I do believe that they care more about MY life than that of another person who just happens to reside here. I mean, if I'd started blogging almost exclusively about, say, a new roommate, I'm sure everyone would get bored pretty quick.
However, I'm not gonna want to stop typing this shit up any time soon. It's kinda cathartic and I do appreciate the feedback I get from the few people who do seem at least slightly interested. For the sake of everyone else, I've already been putting crazy headmate stuff under a cut so only things directly relevant to me are on full view. But perhaps it would be better if I whacked out a filter just for anyone bored enough to actually be interested in my headmate drama and kept it all off everyone else's friends pages?
I don't know. I just know that I start to feel guilty and tedious every time I mention Miles in a post of mine and I can picture the collective rolling of eyes when my f-list sees I'm talking about that again XD Also I don't really know how Miles feels about me always talking about him. I think he'd probably prefer me to stop. But if he's gonna be there then he's gonna get blogged about one way or another... especially when drama and wangst are involved >_>;
So yeah, feedback would be nice. I know that it's my journal and I should be able to type whatever the hell I want in it... but I also don't wanna alienate everyone or bore you all to death, so... heh. Maybe I just have a major case of USI for even thinking this is an issue... but yeah. Tell me, honestly (no feelings will be hurt), should I shut up about Miles (or at least create a filter for my posts about him and Scourge)?
