Psychosis Pt. 2

[flyboy_fox]

I was lying on the couch last night just chilling out when I decided it was stupid fighting with Miles. He's in my head whether I like it or not, and making things worse between us isn't going to help anyone. I remembered that he kinda enjoyed playing that Tetris puzzle board game with Jei that one time, so on a whim I randomly challenged him to a quick game of noughts and crosses (tic-tac-toe to you foreign types). He sorta just shrugged and agreed. I had a pen but no paper to hand and I was lazy so we just used my arm as a canvass, lol. Of course, it's impossible to win or lose a game of noughts and crosses if you start out right. So we played about five games (my left arm is a patchwork of grids x.o), and then somehow he got sloppy and lost one, ahahaha. It was like almost 4am though and I fell asleep on the couch about 10 seconds later.

Anyway, it got me to thinking, because a few days ago Miles was talking with Jei over a cappuccino in a coffee shop in town (ooh, lah-dee-dah!) and mentioned that he wanted to get hold of a chess set. That came about, I think, because he was making some sort of life/chess analogy and Jei said she imagined he would enjoy this version of chess we saw where all the pieces are shot-glasses and you drink the pieces you capture XD But he said that chess was something he'd rather not be inebriated for, and that he would actually love to have someone to play against. Jei knows how to play chess, so she said that she'd happily play against him, which would be cool. But surprisingly he also hinted at maybe playing against me. That would be pretty interesting. I'm no stranger to chess - my father is something of a chess pro. He has all the strategy books of famous games, watched all the live Deep Blue tournament on TV, and played almost daily against his friend Eric back when we lived in Sutton. He also routinely challenged and trounced any friends who came over to my house XD And he had this really gorgeous big marble and glass chess set which sadly got lost when we moved house :\ But anyway! Now I really kinda wanna get a chess set and challenge Miles to a game.

I wanna fix things so that we're okay coexisting. It seemed to be getting that way before. I don't expect him to ever LIKE me, but fuck, if we have even a few things in common it's a start, right? He likes chess, I like chess. Profit?

Edit: oh, oh! I just got a couple days' work staffing a convention at the BIC (: Jei's gonna work two days too, and we'll get about £300 in total. Just basic meet-and-greet/card-scanning stuff but hey, it's something. Perhaps today is a fortuitous day!

I just looked on Argos for a chess board. Their selection is crap. They're all either electronic or computer game versions or special edition crap. I just want a nice sturdy traditional chess set. Too much to ask? :P

Comments

[way-past-cool.livejournal.com]

XD Seeing your arm this morning was hillarious. Yeah, seriously need to get a chess set. That would be awesome! I'd love to watch actually XD

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Seeing my own arm this morning was hilarious XD People gonna think I'm deranged.

I dunno how interesting it would be to watch ^^; I tend to take my time with chess, and I bet Miles won't rush it either. Plus all you'll get from me in way of conversation would be "SHH." :P

[kalium-kx.livejournal.com]

It how freaky how similar things are with you and your alter and me with mine..
Too tired to say anymore..so yeah*sigh*

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Maybe you could elaborate some time when you're less tired? (: I'm curious now.

[kalium-kx.livejournal.com]

I'm more sensitive abt all this so gmail...another day another time..

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Well, drop me an email any time ^^ Have you added me on gTalk yet?

[rainsingingwolf.livejournal.com]

It's not uncommon to not get along with alters, I think. They often have "opposite" attitudes of ourselves. They do things we hate, but sometimes we may find they have attributes we wish we had. Trying to find things to do "together" or things that you both enjoy can help ease the process.

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Miles despises me on principle. I'm everything he detests, apparently. He thinks I'm weak and soft and useless... which I kinda can be at times, fff. But he'd been less... violently repulsed by me lately. Almost even companionable at times.

Getting along with my partner helps a bit. He's much more mellow around her than with me.

Of course I set things back horribly yesterday by proving him totally RIGHT about me but I'm trying to fix that ^^; I'd like to get along with him at least to an extent, because I kinda DO respect some of the traits he has. And I really don't see the point in an endless rivalry x.o Any common ground would be a good start.

I can't find a chess set anywhere though. This gives me a sad.

[kalium-kx.livejournal.com]

Of course!

Yeah, cheers and g'nite..

[rainsingingwolf.livejournal.com]

Not even a basic wooden chess board? Those are normally available in most book stores or retail stores. Occasionally, they can even be found in thrift stores.

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

This student town basically consists of bars, clubs and fast food joints/restaurants. The few basic 'stores' I've already tried don't have 'em. Sadly, I've found a TON of 'electronic' chess games, hand-helds, battleship-style or PC compatible. But a simple wooden board and pieces? No such luck. If I were back home in my rural little farm town I'm sure I could find one no problem at the local market, boot sale or in a thrift store. Wah. I can always try FreeCycle next, see if anyone local has an old/spare one they wouldn't mind parting with.

[rainsingingwolf.livejournal.com]

How about making a paper chess set?

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Hah, that is awesome! ♥ If I don't manage to find one to buy/trade for in the next couple of days, I'll probably go with that idea (: Thanks!

[rainsingingwolf.livejournal.com]

Glad to be of help. ^-^

[shadowdingo.livejournal.com]

There's a few second hand shops etc. in my town, so, if you want, I can have a little look for you. :)

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

That would be very helpful, Jade! If you see anything cheap just let me know and I'll PayPal you the amount + shipping right away (: Thanks so much!

[shadowdingo.livejournal.com]

Hehe, will do. Going to my sister's tomorrow, and I have to walk through town to get there, so I can quickly look on my way there. If I find anything, I'll PM you and let you know. :)

[tragic-elegance.livejournal.com]

When you mentioned noughts and crosses, I just realized something: in my head, I have never read your entries with an English accent. Never. But I suppose you have one, right? XD; Wow, I'm slow.

[flyboy-fox.livejournal.com]

Haha, yes. And a vaguely 'posh' one at that, so I'm told :P

[kalium-kx.livejournal.com]

The chess part sounds so anime-ish..a chess battle between your selves XD

And after reading "The Miles Files", I found some stuff happened at the same time..and some already happened years ago..actually through your psychosis i'm actually finding a lot of patterns i'm starting to understand things more clearer..will elaborate via gmail..