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flyboy_foxThere's always going to be some people who will insist that Jei and I were 'trolling' from_fiction and that we both deserved to get kicked out. I don't know why I'm still sore over it; it's the past, it's not important, and the words of strangers shouldn't matter to me. The fact that the people in that community who knew me outside of it stood up for me is enough, and I did make things worse for myself in a lot of ways. I'm far from blameless and I really need to learn to have a thicker skin over these things. I've always been ridiculously over-sensitive and defensive, one of my greater faults.
Anyway.
This was all more than two years ago. After Jei and I were booted, I made a small effort to establish myself elsewhere (such as Mordax's 'From Fiction' message board), which went okay for a while. But I got extremely disillusioned with 'specialized' communities in general, and after a few months I just thought 'screw it' and pulled myself out of all the fic'kin communities I was in. I didn't make a dramatic thing of it. No huffy goodbyes or anything like that. Just upped and left.
That was all a couple of years ago. I've stayed out of those communities for a while now. But the friends I made while I was IN those communities are some of the best and most enduring friends I have on LiveJournal. I miss being part of those groups. Sure, I don't always see eye-to-eye with everybody (who does??), but I did enjoy being a part of it. We had some really interesting discussions!
So I decided to go back to one of the other fic'kin communities that I used to be a member of a while back. embodied_past. As far as I can remember, I didn't get myself into any trouble there and only left because I was doing a big fic'kin purge. It might even have been around the time that I did that whole "I'm not fic'kin, I denounce everything!" emo-angst thing that I remember pissed off a whole lot of people who knew me better than that XD; So hopefully this time around will go a little better.
I've already added a couple of new friends from there. The place seems open, friendly, and best of all... actually active!
This doesn't mean I'm suddenly gonna start writing a whole load of fic'kin related posts or anything. I've never really done that and probably never will. You'll still get the occasional one though. I would like to write more about personal fandom-related things that matter to me. If I do, I'll probably cut them. I might even set up that 'Encrypted' custom friends group for fic'kin friends and anyone else who cares.
Yeah, this is no great epiphany or anything. But it feels like it's important nevertheless.
(Also, I think I might make a post later about fic'kin related 'issues', including a couple of the supposedly controversial things that Jei and I talked about in that comm, because I don't like how there are just some things that you don't talk about in fic'kin communities. It might be a good way of closing that chapter - or potentially alienating new friends x.x We'll see. I think I'm more open-minded now than I was back then. I hope other fic'kin are too ^^)
Anyway.
This was all more than two years ago. After Jei and I were booted, I made a small effort to establish myself elsewhere (such as Mordax's 'From Fiction' message board), which went okay for a while. But I got extremely disillusioned with 'specialized' communities in general, and after a few months I just thought 'screw it' and pulled myself out of all the fic'kin communities I was in. I didn't make a dramatic thing of it. No huffy goodbyes or anything like that. Just upped and left.
That was all a couple of years ago. I've stayed out of those communities for a while now. But the friends I made while I was IN those communities are some of the best and most enduring friends I have on LiveJournal. I miss being part of those groups. Sure, I don't always see eye-to-eye with everybody (who does??), but I did enjoy being a part of it. We had some really interesting discussions!
So I decided to go back to one of the other fic'kin communities that I used to be a member of a while back. embodied_past. As far as I can remember, I didn't get myself into any trouble there and only left because I was doing a big fic'kin purge. It might even have been around the time that I did that whole "I'm not fic'kin, I denounce everything!" emo-angst thing that I remember pissed off a whole lot of people who knew me better than that XD; So hopefully this time around will go a little better.
I've already added a couple of new friends from there. The place seems open, friendly, and best of all... actually active!
This doesn't mean I'm suddenly gonna start writing a whole load of fic'kin related posts or anything. I've never really done that and probably never will. You'll still get the occasional one though. I would like to write more about personal fandom-related things that matter to me. If I do, I'll probably cut them. I might even set up that 'Encrypted' custom friends group for fic'kin friends and anyone else who cares.
Yeah, this is no great epiphany or anything. But it feels like it's important nevertheless.
(Also, I think I might make a post later about fic'kin related 'issues', including a couple of the supposedly controversial things that Jei and I talked about in that comm, because I don't like how there are just some things that you don't talk about in fic'kin communities. It might be a good way of closing that chapter - or potentially alienating new friends x.x We'll see. I think I'm more open-minded now than I was back then. I hope other fic'kin are too ^^)
