I am okay.
Dec. 10th, 2009 04:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flyboy_foxYaaah... I dunno what I set off here, but I feel like it's skeltering out of control more quickly than I can keep up with it, and I just wanna shove it back in its box and put a lid on it ^^;
I am okay.
Here's how it stands:
I am not going to the hospital. I am not going to the local doctor here. I am not calling a crisis hotline. I am not seeing a shrink.
I am seeing a college counsellor next Thursday (one week from now), for what it's worth. I am going to see my doctor, who knows me well, back at home sometime after the 18th of this month.
I'm alright, really I am, and right now I feel more worried and guilty about all the people I panicked than about myself. Yes, I'm still having low moods... it's par for the course. I'm not great, but I'm not crazy or a danger to myself or anyone else either. I spazzed out, and now I think it's out of my system. The marks on my face are almost gone and the ones on my arms are healing well. My hair, amazingly, looks alright (if a little 'dyke-ish' ^^;). My eyebrows are coming back remarkably fast and Jei won't be able to say that I look like a chemotherapy patient for much longer :P
I am fine. Really I am. It's been nice to see that even my trolls have decided not to troll me over all this ('though I guess I'm tempting fate now), but really it's not all that. Please, troll me. I can take it XD; I'd prefer it, really.
Life goes on, things can get back to normal. This is me, what I do. It's not the first time and it may not be the last, but even in my insanity I have my boundaries that won't be overstepped.
Thanks for all your support, guys. Now, can we forget about me for a bit? XP
I am okay.
Here's how it stands:
I am not going to the hospital. I am not going to the local doctor here. I am not calling a crisis hotline. I am not seeing a shrink.
I am seeing a college counsellor next Thursday (one week from now), for what it's worth. I am going to see my doctor, who knows me well, back at home sometime after the 18th of this month.
I'm alright, really I am, and right now I feel more worried and guilty about all the people I panicked than about myself. Yes, I'm still having low moods... it's par for the course. I'm not great, but I'm not crazy or a danger to myself or anyone else either. I spazzed out, and now I think it's out of my system. The marks on my face are almost gone and the ones on my arms are healing well. My hair, amazingly, looks alright (if a little 'dyke-ish' ^^;). My eyebrows are coming back remarkably fast and Jei won't be able to say that I look like a chemotherapy patient for much longer :P
I am fine. Really I am. It's been nice to see that even my trolls have decided not to troll me over all this ('though I guess I'm tempting fate now), but really it's not all that. Please, troll me. I can take it XD; I'd prefer it, really.
Life goes on, things can get back to normal. This is me, what I do. It's not the first time and it may not be the last, but even in my insanity I have my boundaries that won't be overstepped.
Thanks for all your support, guys. Now, can we forget about me for a bit? XP
