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Cotton wool head
Dec. 7th, 2009 09:32 amChh'. It's raining again. Does it ever stop raining? >_>
I have no eyebrows. I look like an alien. LOL. Should I shave my head completely to finish the look? I dunno why I took off my eyebrows. It just seemed like a thing to do. Har. In retrospect I kinda wish I hadn't. So I'm wearing a woollen hat pulled down over my brow. I also didn't like the asymmetry of my cheek, so I put marks on my other cheek to match.
Then I lay on the couch and stared at my hands for about two hours. That was fun. Well no. It was kinda odd. Really interesting. I literally didn't move at all for a couple hours. I kinda felt disassociated from my body, like my limbs were dead weights and not my own, and if they ever did move I wouldn't be able to feel it 'cause they weren't mine. It sorta felt like I was paralysed but I wasn't scared or worried because I didn't want to move. I could make very small nodding movements or 'mmn' sounds. It was like a really deep trance and I stayed in it until Jei brought me a blanket and covered me up and I fell asleep for the night on the couch.
This morning I got up and shook the barbells from my head and spent a while trying to draw my eyebrows on with an eye-liner pencil. Didn't work very well so I'm back to wearing the woolly cap. Now I'm floating with the tide and just trying to write how I feel.
Jei will be home from school later. Later. For now I need to do something, I dunno what. I can't sleep any more and I feel restless. I'm not sure where I am any more.
It's only a few weeks until Christmas.
I have no eyebrows. I look like an alien. LOL. Should I shave my head completely to finish the look? I dunno why I took off my eyebrows. It just seemed like a thing to do. Har. In retrospect I kinda wish I hadn't. So I'm wearing a woollen hat pulled down over my brow. I also didn't like the asymmetry of my cheek, so I put marks on my other cheek to match.
Then I lay on the couch and stared at my hands for about two hours. That was fun. Well no. It was kinda odd. Really interesting. I literally didn't move at all for a couple hours. I kinda felt disassociated from my body, like my limbs were dead weights and not my own, and if they ever did move I wouldn't be able to feel it 'cause they weren't mine. It sorta felt like I was paralysed but I wasn't scared or worried because I didn't want to move. I could make very small nodding movements or 'mmn' sounds. It was like a really deep trance and I stayed in it until Jei brought me a blanket and covered me up and I fell asleep for the night on the couch.
This morning I got up and shook the barbells from my head and spent a while trying to draw my eyebrows on with an eye-liner pencil. Didn't work very well so I'm back to wearing the woolly cap. Now I'm floating with the tide and just trying to write how I feel.
Jei will be home from school later. Later. For now I need to do something, I dunno what. I can't sleep any more and I feel restless. I'm not sure where I am any more.
It's only a few weeks until Christmas.
