~No such thing as an Arabian dream~

Wah, it seems I'm destined to just NOT get a good night's sleep ;_; You can blame my silly cat Fox this time. I think he's still nervous about the new house, and so he's been following me like a shadow. And at bedtime, he just would NOT leave me alone. I didn't like to shut him out of my room, but maybe I should have... because he spent pretty much the whole night climbing on me, jumping on me, purring right in my ear and eating my hair x.o He did snuggle up under the covers against me for a while which was nice, but the rest of the night he was just... argh! At around 5am he started mewing at me incessantly, so I had to get up and go downstairs to feed him. I don't know who owns who in this relationship >.> Anyway, he's on my bed now, but earlier he was climbing all over my desk and stepping on the keyboard and obscuring the screen... gah. I did snap a couple of photos though ^^

( I love my Foxie even if he IS being a pain... n.n )

I'm glad he's here ^^ I missed him during the 6 months I was living in that pet-free apartment. I don't blame him for wanting a bit of attention ^^; Even at the detriment of my sleep. ::Yawns::

Irony? ^^;

I don't normally Role-Play with anyone other than Jei, but lately I found myself in an IM RP with someone from SSMB who's playing... wait for it... Shadow. I think I've expressed before my personal feelings about Shadow which can basically be summed up as such: I don't like him. So why am I RPing with someone playing him? ^^; I'm not really sure, but somehow he manages to play Shadow in a way where I actually... kinda... don't mind him, you know? It's still weird, but I guess it's kinda cool.

But the thing that's kind of ironic in an annoying way is that just now he kinda brought Tails' fear of thunderstorms into the story a little... and just as that happened, I realized it actually seems like it's REALLY gonna storm outside my house x.o Anyone who's been on my friends list for at least a few months surely knows by now that I actually AM point-blank terrified of thunderstorms ^^; There hasn't been one in a while... but the near-gale-force winds out there sound a lot like distant thunder, plus the rain, and now I'm getting paranoid ._. One of the few downsides of the layout of my room is the skylight windows - including one right above my bed. If there's a storm, and thunder and lightning, it'll be right above me and the flashes will seem even scarier than normal ;_; I know, I'm a horrible wuss... but thunderstorms are evil :\

Anyway, while I'm on the topic of role-play, I read something kinda interesting in today's JList e-newsletter:

[Speaking about the Akihabara region]

There are dozens of "Maid Café" establishments where you can go and have cake and coffee served to you by a beautiful girl in a maid outfit, and this category is always morphing into sub-genres, such as "Imoto Café" where all the girls pretend to be your younger sister and call you "Oniichan," and "Tsundere Café" where the girls act like stereotypical bitchy-but-cute characters found in most every anime series these days.

This is just fascinating to me, and I don't think there's anything like this in the Western world (at least not in any 'commonplace' sense). What it boils down to really is 'real life' roleplaying. CosPlay. LARPing on a small scale. I do believe there's a sexual element to it, but it's aimed to be 'cute' rather than 'raunchy' erotic, I'd think. Most of all, I suppose the idea is to create a realistic fantasy. Whilst those particular scenarios have no real appeal to me and are very very basic in their nature, I do have to admit that for the longest time I've wanted to take part in an LARP. When I was little, I loved fantasy games... acting out stories, pretending... and I miss it, I suppose. But in a broader sense, I miss something else, maybe the opportunity to truly be myself... or at least, to not have to conform to the way this world operates. I'd love to forget the way things truly are and imagine I'm some place else in a world that runs so very differently to this one. I'd like to immerse myself in fantasy and feel... well... free.

These kind of ramblings are the things that get me ridiculed and told that thinking and feeling these ways is detrimental to my mental health. They can say that if they wish but it won't stop me from wishing and wanting. I'm not in any way saying that I don't like this world or my life... but it's so uniform compared to where my mind is at, and I'd love to explore realms beyond the daily grind. Something different. Something unique.

But I can do both... There's no reason why I can't live a fulfilling 'real' life and also follow my fantasies ^^ We're all roped in to a certain extent, but we have more freedom than we allow ourselves to realize, as long as we don't forget our responsibilities along the way.

And I'm gonna shut up now. I don't usually let myself make posts like this, but... I needed to. Okay? :P