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Egads, migraines suck x.x Wish I knew why I've been getting them so often lately. Not to mention this one lasted 12 hours as opposed to the usual 6 (still not totally gone x.x). The worst is, eh... they waste whole days. Friday = gone. Yay. Pff.
Anyway, I guess I've been a little stressed lately. I'm kinda envious of everyone writing their Xmas lists and decorating their homes right now... My family's financial state is dire. My mom earns about £1,500 per month. Paying for this apartment AND our home back in London (where my brother and dad are living) is costing £4,000+ per month. We are eating so much into her retirement fund, it's scary. We've sold the house in London, but my mom is seriously considering not buying out here. Dunno what's gonna happen yet, it's all a bit scary... and my mom is stressed with not knowing how to spend Xmas with me and my brother when we live on opposite sides of the UK *sigh* So basically, Xmas isn't gonna exist this year. No gifts, no decorations, no tree.. nothing ._. I feel selfish for feeling so down about it... but I love Xmas and I love having a tree and decorations and exchanging gifts... and I'm HORRIBLY jealous of everyone who's gonna have that opportunity this year.
But yeah, I'm a lot better off than a lot of people, I know that. But I also feel bad because I have NO money and therefore can't even send greetings cards this year ._. I've been trying to get a job ever since we moved here, but Weston-super-Mare = jobless. Aesthetically, it's a beautiful place to live. Economically... dead fish in the water. Argh.
So yeah, I'm worried. Real worried. Money = non-existent, and my mom is seriously depressing herself thinking that moving here was a BAAAD idea and that it was the biggest mistake of her life. Stress. Guess it's no wonder I'm getting migraines, heh.
Anyway, I guess I've been a little stressed lately. I'm kinda envious of everyone writing their Xmas lists and decorating their homes right now... My family's financial state is dire. My mom earns about £1,500 per month. Paying for this apartment AND our home back in London (where my brother and dad are living) is costing £4,000+ per month. We are eating so much into her retirement fund, it's scary. We've sold the house in London, but my mom is seriously considering not buying out here. Dunno what's gonna happen yet, it's all a bit scary... and my mom is stressed with not knowing how to spend Xmas with me and my brother when we live on opposite sides of the UK *sigh* So basically, Xmas isn't gonna exist this year. No gifts, no decorations, no tree.. nothing ._. I feel selfish for feeling so down about it... but I love Xmas and I love having a tree and decorations and exchanging gifts... and I'm HORRIBLY jealous of everyone who's gonna have that opportunity this year.
But yeah, I'm a lot better off than a lot of people, I know that. But I also feel bad because I have NO money and therefore can't even send greetings cards this year ._. I've been trying to get a job ever since we moved here, but Weston-super-Mare = jobless. Aesthetically, it's a beautiful place to live. Economically... dead fish in the water. Argh.
So yeah, I'm worried. Real worried. Money = non-existent, and my mom is seriously depressing herself thinking that moving here was a BAAAD idea and that it was the biggest mistake of her life. Stress. Guess it's no wonder I'm getting migraines, heh.
