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flyboy_foxSo, my dad decided to show up for a night to see me one more time before he goes back to Colombia and I go off to University. Despite our differences, I did want to see him because who knows when I'll see him again? Plus, he's more than 80 years old... I suppose I should make the most of any chances to build some sort of relationship with him in the time that's left. I know we have irreconcilable differences in a lot of ways, but he's still my dad, y'know? I don't have it in me to turf him out of my life completely.
But just now when I went downstairs to make some tea (I've been up since 6am for no reason other than that I fell asleep about 7:30pm last night), my dad was there waiting for me, and he tried to give me a £50 note. WTF? My dad doesn't HAVE that kind of money. My dad has NO money. I'd much rather he keep what little he has to look after himself rather than trying to buy my affection. He doesn't need to. I love him unconditionally even if I don't always get on with him, and I'm at peace with the fact that he can't change. So, he doesn't need to buy me out.
I must have been arguing with him over it for a good ten minutes, but he wouldn't budge and I was starting to feel that it would hurt him more if I didn't take it, so finally I took it. But I am putting it straight into my savings account so that when he inevitably needs money again, I can give it back to him.
Naturally, it's hard for my mom, too. She's never been able to get him to pay a penny towards the household or family upkeep and he's never been here, and now he's showing up and shoving £50 notes into his kids' hands. Really, the money should go to my mom. She's the one who deserves it after all these years raising us as pretty much a single mom. But of course she wouldn't take the money from me either.
::Sigh:: Families, eh, who'd have 'em? :P
But just now when I went downstairs to make some tea (I've been up since 6am for no reason other than that I fell asleep about 7:30pm last night), my dad was there waiting for me, and he tried to give me a £50 note. WTF? My dad doesn't HAVE that kind of money. My dad has NO money. I'd much rather he keep what little he has to look after himself rather than trying to buy my affection. He doesn't need to. I love him unconditionally even if I don't always get on with him, and I'm at peace with the fact that he can't change. So, he doesn't need to buy me out.
I must have been arguing with him over it for a good ten minutes, but he wouldn't budge and I was starting to feel that it would hurt him more if I didn't take it, so finally I took it. But I am putting it straight into my savings account so that when he inevitably needs money again, I can give it back to him.
Naturally, it's hard for my mom, too. She's never been able to get him to pay a penny towards the household or family upkeep and he's never been here, and now he's showing up and shoving £50 notes into his kids' hands. Really, the money should go to my mom. She's the one who deserves it after all these years raising us as pretty much a single mom. But of course she wouldn't take the money from me either.
::Sigh:: Families, eh, who'd have 'em? :P
