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flyboy_foxI've had nothing to write about lately, so I'm ganking this quizizzle from Jade (![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
shadowdingo).
What shall I call you?: Jai is fine. Most people call me that. I'm also known to a few as Flyboy, Fiebie, Tails, Koji and Alex
Why are you taking this quiz?: See pre-cut lead-in.
Promise not to get offended?: Sure.
Great! Any last words?: Don't tase me, bro!
Personal Life
How's life treaten' ya?: Not too bad, really.
Are you happy with your life right now?: Yeah, I'm actually pretty content. I'm a little tired and wish I had a bit more free time, but I have a job, an income, and I'm off to Uni in September at the same time and in the same town as Jei, sooo... not much to complain about! *Chipper*
What could make it better, even if you are?: Earning slightly more, and having a few more days off :P
Who do you live with?: My mom and brother.
How do you feel about this?: My mom is great. She's just a wonderful strong person, and I admire her greatly. I'll miss her awesome cooking when I'm at Uni! My brother is... eh. But aren't all younger siblings 'eh'? I could do without the drum n' bass, but he seems to have toned things down a little lately.
Do you have a history of traumatic events in your life?: Nah. To be honest, I'm sure I could find a way to make my life sound awful... broken family, financial difficulties, illness, stress... Let's see, going back... I had a nervous breakdown when I was 14 which forced me to leave school and then not leave my house for 4 years, but even that I don't think counts as 'traumatic'. Stressful and at times painful and disheartening... but I'm lucky enough to have never had anything I'd classify as 'major trauma' happen to me.
How is school?: I haven't been in 'school' since I was 14, but I'm looking forward to hitting University like a frenzied tornado :D
Do you have lots of friends?: Sure, although they're mostly online and therefore in other countries or at least distant corners of the UK. I'm not very socially outgoing, but maybe I'll make some good friends at Uni.
How do people generally perceive you?: Quiet and shy, for some reason. I'm not actually at all shy, but I do tend to keep myself to myself and I'm not at all extrovert. I'm more outgoing with people I've known for a while, once I've better gaged how much I can 'be myself' around them.
How do you generally perceive people?: Everyone's different. I don't 'perceive people' in bulk anymore than I'd judge anything else in one lumped category. I do tend to try to think that people are good, despite my cynical nature. I try not to judge on appearance, also, even when my instincts try to make those quick judgements.
Are you a bitter person?: I try so hard not to be, but sometimes I do go through bitter and self-pitying phases. Usually it's just depression warping my ability to see things for how they really are. Those are my 'emo' spells, and they happen every now and then but I always come through them and manage to put things back into perspective. So no, I don't think I'm a bitter person in general
Do you easily get jealous of people?: Sadly, that is a fault of mine. I don't get obsessively jealous, but I can have moments where I'll really envy, say, Jei because of her amazing drawing skills or her good relationship with her sister. But again, it's like the bitterness thing... it happens when I'm feeling low myself and my esteem is shaken easily. I'm not truly jealous; I just feel like if I have what other people have, I'll feel better.
How do you channel your anger?: Violently, I'm afraid. Not with physical violence, but I can turn emotionally and verbally aggressive when I'm pissed. It's something I'm working hard on managing, and I've made good progress, although a few select people close to me still occasionally bear the brunt of my sarcasm and emotional coldness when I'm angry/upset. I know it's a failure on my part and it's something I'm not proud of, but I'm working to overcome it.
How well do you trust others?: I trust most people to a degree. I don't like to be too guarded. In fact, sometimes I can be a little too trusting, partly because I'm afraid of causing offence. But at the same time, there's certain things that I don't divulge unless I'm really sure that the information is is safe hands.
Your Appearance
Do you think you are attractive?: Sometimes. Other times I hate every aspect of myself and would change my appearance in a heartbeat. Mostly I'm pretty neutral about how I look.
Why or why not?: I have no reason to believe that I'm ugly, but in the same vein I'm well aware that I don't fit the standards of stunning attractiveness, either. I'm just me. I'm imperfect, but sometimes, on a good day, I can tell that I look alright. My hair falls right, my face has a healthy glow, my clothes fit just right... it just all snaps into place. Other days, I know I look like a wreck no matter what I do.
What is your favorite physical feature?: I'm loving my hair right now because it has blond and copper streaks in it :D
Why do you choose this, above all?: It's eye-catching but not overdone or unnatural. I'm also proud that I did something a bit more extrovert with my appearance, and I think that's given me confidence.
What do you think of your eyes?: I don't think they're anything special. They're dark brown, and I have been told they're nice... but then again, everyone always compliments the eyes :P The very fact that this question exists shows how cliché they are.
Do you like the person you see in the mirror?: Sometimes. You could say we have a love/hate relationship and I'm caught in the middle.
Have you ever been happy with your appearance?: See above.
What about unhappy?: Aaand again.
Has anyone ever called you ugly?: Not to my recollection, which actually does surprise me, as it's such a common insult. Maybe I'm just so ugly that it would be an insult to 'ugly' to call me that XD
Do you think you're ugly?: Nah. I have gripes about my appearance, things I'd love to change... but doesn't (almost) everybody? On a bad day, I can be convinced that I'm hideous, but on a normal day I'm okay with how I look. I just don't really think about it too much.
How important is appearance to you?: Not hugely. Of course I make some judgments based on the way a person presents, but I try not to think that way. The fact that I don't even know what some of my good friends look like should indicate how little appearance matters, anyway.
What 2 major things would you change about your appearance?: Well, my nose, for a start. It's too long and plain. Then also, maybe the length of my face. It's very oval. *Shrug*
Why do you choose these two things?: Because they're things that irk me about my appearance. Although, I'd forgo them both to have true and perfect androgyny.
Friends and Social Life
Let's be vague. In general, do you like people?: I'm neutral on people until I get to know them. I'm not really much of a people-person, but I'm not a miser who hates and scorns people for no reason either.
Why or why not?: Because I don't feel like I could simply 'love' or 'hate' people as a whole. I base my decision on the individual.
Do you have a high or low tolerance for stupidity?: I have a very low tolerance for stupidity in people who are capable of knowing better. I have utmost patience and understanding for those who genuinely struggle with concepts and strategies, such as young children, learning disabled people, or just people who aren't as gifted in the IQ department as others. It's the stupidity of those who follow sheep mentalities or don't bother to learn grammar or think everyone needs to agree with them that gets to me.
Are you acceptant of others' beliefs?: I try to be. I admit I have trouble accepting certain beliefs. Also, perhaps it's hypocritical but I can find myself suspecting others of claiming to have a certain belief (or even fooling themselves into accepting that belief) just to conform to a certain crowd or, on the flip side, to appear different and edgy. I have had run-ins with people who I honestly believe are making their belief-claims purely for show, and it does annoy me. I suppose that's a reason why, despite my own very peculiar beliefs, I don't really talk about it much or make it known when it's not necessary or pertinent to do so.
Do you think you have lots of friends?: This again? :P I have plenty. They live inside my computer!
What do you think of the friends you do have?: I can't give answers to bulk-questions like that, I already said. My friends are all individuals, and therefore what I think about them varies with each one of them. But if I didn't like them all, they wouldn't be my friends, would they? :P
Do you believe that 'friendship is golden?: If it's a golden retriever, then yes :D
Do you have a best friend?: Mm-hmm.
How long have you known this person?: Nigh on ten years now.
Are they like a brother/sister to you?: INCEST! :O ... eh, I guess we are sibling-like in a way.
Are you shy?: No, just introverted until I know people well.
Are you outgoing?: When I'm a hundred percent comfortable and in the right mindset, I can be, yes.
Have you been hurt by people?: Sure, but who hasn't? My dad's caused the most (emotional) pain, I think. But I'm not letting it fester and eat away at me. That would be pointless and completely counterproductive.
Have you ever intentionally hurt anyone, physically or emotionally?: I did give my brother a concussion once, but it actually WASN'T intentional. Honestly! But as a wee tyke, I did bite people sometimes. I don't do that now. Honest! But I can be emotionally harsh sometimes, as I admitted earlier.
Why or why not?: I bit people because I would freak out and go berserk XD; As for being a git when I'm in a bad mood, there's no excuse. It's just me being a temperamental moody jerk who finds it hard to be flexible and accepting of change and doesn't like feeling out of control.
The things no one likes to talk about! (Touchy questions ahead.)
Has someone close to you ever died?: My grandparents died some years back. The most recent death that hit me hardest was when my cat, Fara, died from a stomach tumor a couple of years ago at the young age of 6. I still feel very sad about it and dream about her sometimes.
Do you think about suicide?: I have done in the past, in my more dramatic and self-loathing phases where I turn from a reasonable fairly-well-adjusted person into a pathetic self-hating emo loser. I've never actually attempted it, though. And I never will. I think thinking about it is just a form of catharsis for me, really.
Do you cut?: No. I have done it once or twice during the spells I mentioned above, but I feel idiotic about it and it's certainly not something I partake in with any sort of regularity.
Do you suffer from Clinical Depression?: Yes. But I'm never going to use it as an excuse for my own failings. I'm taking a low dose of medication to help keep my moods stable, but now it's up to me to see the best in life and go for it.
Do you have an STD?: Lol, no.
Have you ever taken illegal drugs?: No. The only illegal drug I'm tempted to try is marijuana, but I'm not on the active hunt for it. I'm sure I'll get offered some at Uni, but I know to be careful of what kind of mixes and potencies are out there. I don't feel the 'need' to try drugs, really.
Why or why not?: As I just said, I don't feel the need. There are better and more reliable ways to get high, such as music or a night out with my girlfriend.
Do you smoke cigarettes or drink alcohol?: I don't smoke. Yick. I also hardly drink. I might have a Guinness or a Baileys a couple times per month, at the weekend, but I rarely drink enough to even get tipsy. I quite like the taste of certain alcoholic beverages, but I do not enjoy being drunk (it's the control thing again).
Why or why not?: These "why or why not?" questions are pretty redundant when I tend to explain my answers in the initial question ^^;
Last Questions!
Did this quiz make you uncomfortable?: No. Was it supposed to? 'Cause you'd need to try a lot harder...
Were you honest?: Yup. Always am.
Whew, that took me up to bedtime. 'Night all!
shadowdingo).What shall I call you?: Jai is fine. Most people call me that. I'm also known to a few as Flyboy, Fiebie, Tails, Koji and Alex
Why are you taking this quiz?: See pre-cut lead-in.
Promise not to get offended?: Sure.
Great! Any last words?: Don't tase me, bro!
Personal Life
How's life treaten' ya?: Not too bad, really.
Are you happy with your life right now?: Yeah, I'm actually pretty content. I'm a little tired and wish I had a bit more free time, but I have a job, an income, and I'm off to Uni in September at the same time and in the same town as Jei, sooo... not much to complain about! *Chipper*
What could make it better, even if you are?: Earning slightly more, and having a few more days off :P
Who do you live with?: My mom and brother.
How do you feel about this?: My mom is great. She's just a wonderful strong person, and I admire her greatly. I'll miss her awesome cooking when I'm at Uni! My brother is... eh. But aren't all younger siblings 'eh'? I could do without the drum n' bass, but he seems to have toned things down a little lately.
Do you have a history of traumatic events in your life?: Nah. To be honest, I'm sure I could find a way to make my life sound awful... broken family, financial difficulties, illness, stress... Let's see, going back... I had a nervous breakdown when I was 14 which forced me to leave school and then not leave my house for 4 years, but even that I don't think counts as 'traumatic'. Stressful and at times painful and disheartening... but I'm lucky enough to have never had anything I'd classify as 'major trauma' happen to me.
How is school?: I haven't been in 'school' since I was 14, but I'm looking forward to hitting University like a frenzied tornado :D
Do you have lots of friends?: Sure, although they're mostly online and therefore in other countries or at least distant corners of the UK. I'm not very socially outgoing, but maybe I'll make some good friends at Uni.
How do people generally perceive you?: Quiet and shy, for some reason. I'm not actually at all shy, but I do tend to keep myself to myself and I'm not at all extrovert. I'm more outgoing with people I've known for a while, once I've better gaged how much I can 'be myself' around them.
How do you generally perceive people?: Everyone's different. I don't 'perceive people' in bulk anymore than I'd judge anything else in one lumped category. I do tend to try to think that people are good, despite my cynical nature. I try not to judge on appearance, also, even when my instincts try to make those quick judgements.
Are you a bitter person?: I try so hard not to be, but sometimes I do go through bitter and self-pitying phases. Usually it's just depression warping my ability to see things for how they really are. Those are my 'emo' spells, and they happen every now and then but I always come through them and manage to put things back into perspective. So no, I don't think I'm a bitter person in general
Do you easily get jealous of people?: Sadly, that is a fault of mine. I don't get obsessively jealous, but I can have moments where I'll really envy, say, Jei because of her amazing drawing skills or her good relationship with her sister. But again, it's like the bitterness thing... it happens when I'm feeling low myself and my esteem is shaken easily. I'm not truly jealous; I just feel like if I have what other people have, I'll feel better.
How do you channel your anger?: Violently, I'm afraid. Not with physical violence, but I can turn emotionally and verbally aggressive when I'm pissed. It's something I'm working hard on managing, and I've made good progress, although a few select people close to me still occasionally bear the brunt of my sarcasm and emotional coldness when I'm angry/upset. I know it's a failure on my part and it's something I'm not proud of, but I'm working to overcome it.
How well do you trust others?: I trust most people to a degree. I don't like to be too guarded. In fact, sometimes I can be a little too trusting, partly because I'm afraid of causing offence. But at the same time, there's certain things that I don't divulge unless I'm really sure that the information is is safe hands.
Your Appearance
Do you think you are attractive?: Sometimes. Other times I hate every aspect of myself and would change my appearance in a heartbeat. Mostly I'm pretty neutral about how I look.
Why or why not?: I have no reason to believe that I'm ugly, but in the same vein I'm well aware that I don't fit the standards of stunning attractiveness, either. I'm just me. I'm imperfect, but sometimes, on a good day, I can tell that I look alright. My hair falls right, my face has a healthy glow, my clothes fit just right... it just all snaps into place. Other days, I know I look like a wreck no matter what I do.
What is your favorite physical feature?: I'm loving my hair right now because it has blond and copper streaks in it :D
Why do you choose this, above all?: It's eye-catching but not overdone or unnatural. I'm also proud that I did something a bit more extrovert with my appearance, and I think that's given me confidence.
What do you think of your eyes?: I don't think they're anything special. They're dark brown, and I have been told they're nice... but then again, everyone always compliments the eyes :P The very fact that this question exists shows how cliché they are.
Do you like the person you see in the mirror?: Sometimes. You could say we have a love/hate relationship and I'm caught in the middle.
Have you ever been happy with your appearance?: See above.
What about unhappy?: Aaand again.
Has anyone ever called you ugly?: Not to my recollection, which actually does surprise me, as it's such a common insult. Maybe I'm just so ugly that it would be an insult to 'ugly' to call me that XD
Do you think you're ugly?: Nah. I have gripes about my appearance, things I'd love to change... but doesn't (almost) everybody? On a bad day, I can be convinced that I'm hideous, but on a normal day I'm okay with how I look. I just don't really think about it too much.
How important is appearance to you?: Not hugely. Of course I make some judgments based on the way a person presents, but I try not to think that way. The fact that I don't even know what some of my good friends look like should indicate how little appearance matters, anyway.
What 2 major things would you change about your appearance?: Well, my nose, for a start. It's too long and plain. Then also, maybe the length of my face. It's very oval. *Shrug*
Why do you choose these two things?: Because they're things that irk me about my appearance. Although, I'd forgo them both to have true and perfect androgyny.
Friends and Social Life
Let's be vague. In general, do you like people?: I'm neutral on people until I get to know them. I'm not really much of a people-person, but I'm not a miser who hates and scorns people for no reason either.
Why or why not?: Because I don't feel like I could simply 'love' or 'hate' people as a whole. I base my decision on the individual.
Do you have a high or low tolerance for stupidity?: I have a very low tolerance for stupidity in people who are capable of knowing better. I have utmost patience and understanding for those who genuinely struggle with concepts and strategies, such as young children, learning disabled people, or just people who aren't as gifted in the IQ department as others. It's the stupidity of those who follow sheep mentalities or don't bother to learn grammar or think everyone needs to agree with them that gets to me.
Are you acceptant of others' beliefs?: I try to be. I admit I have trouble accepting certain beliefs. Also, perhaps it's hypocritical but I can find myself suspecting others of claiming to have a certain belief (or even fooling themselves into accepting that belief) just to conform to a certain crowd or, on the flip side, to appear different and edgy. I have had run-ins with people who I honestly believe are making their belief-claims purely for show, and it does annoy me. I suppose that's a reason why, despite my own very peculiar beliefs, I don't really talk about it much or make it known when it's not necessary or pertinent to do so.
Do you think you have lots of friends?: This again? :P I have plenty. They live inside my computer!
What do you think of the friends you do have?: I can't give answers to bulk-questions like that, I already said. My friends are all individuals, and therefore what I think about them varies with each one of them. But if I didn't like them all, they wouldn't be my friends, would they? :P
Do you believe that 'friendship is golden?: If it's a golden retriever, then yes :D
Do you have a best friend?: Mm-hmm.
How long have you known this person?: Nigh on ten years now.
Are they like a brother/sister to you?: INCEST! :O ... eh, I guess we are sibling-like in a way.
Are you shy?: No, just introverted until I know people well.
Are you outgoing?: When I'm a hundred percent comfortable and in the right mindset, I can be, yes.
Have you been hurt by people?: Sure, but who hasn't? My dad's caused the most (emotional) pain, I think. But I'm not letting it fester and eat away at me. That would be pointless and completely counterproductive.
Have you ever intentionally hurt anyone, physically or emotionally?: I did give my brother a concussion once, but it actually WASN'T intentional. Honestly! But as a wee tyke, I did bite people sometimes. I don't do that now. Honest! But I can be emotionally harsh sometimes, as I admitted earlier.
Why or why not?: I bit people because I would freak out and go berserk XD; As for being a git when I'm in a bad mood, there's no excuse. It's just me being a temperamental moody jerk who finds it hard to be flexible and accepting of change and doesn't like feeling out of control.
The things no one likes to talk about! (Touchy questions ahead.)
Has someone close to you ever died?: My grandparents died some years back. The most recent death that hit me hardest was when my cat, Fara, died from a stomach tumor a couple of years ago at the young age of 6. I still feel very sad about it and dream about her sometimes.
Do you think about suicide?: I have done in the past, in my more dramatic and self-loathing phases where I turn from a reasonable fairly-well-adjusted person into a pathetic self-hating emo loser. I've never actually attempted it, though. And I never will. I think thinking about it is just a form of catharsis for me, really.
Do you cut?: No. I have done it once or twice during the spells I mentioned above, but I feel idiotic about it and it's certainly not something I partake in with any sort of regularity.
Do you suffer from Clinical Depression?: Yes. But I'm never going to use it as an excuse for my own failings. I'm taking a low dose of medication to help keep my moods stable, but now it's up to me to see the best in life and go for it.
Do you have an STD?: Lol, no.
Have you ever taken illegal drugs?: No. The only illegal drug I'm tempted to try is marijuana, but I'm not on the active hunt for it. I'm sure I'll get offered some at Uni, but I know to be careful of what kind of mixes and potencies are out there. I don't feel the 'need' to try drugs, really.
Why or why not?: As I just said, I don't feel the need. There are better and more reliable ways to get high, such as music or a night out with my girlfriend.
Do you smoke cigarettes or drink alcohol?: I don't smoke. Yick. I also hardly drink. I might have a Guinness or a Baileys a couple times per month, at the weekend, but I rarely drink enough to even get tipsy. I quite like the taste of certain alcoholic beverages, but I do not enjoy being drunk (it's the control thing again).
Why or why not?: These "why or why not?" questions are pretty redundant when I tend to explain my answers in the initial question ^^;
Last Questions!
Did this quiz make you uncomfortable?: No. Was it supposed to? 'Cause you'd need to try a lot harder...
Were you honest?: Yup. Always am.
Whew, that took me up to bedtime. 'Night all!
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