~Rhythm is a dancer (reprise)~
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You know what the trouble is? So many people are willing to nod their heads and say "yes, I agree!" about an issue, but so few are willing to then stand up to FIGHT for something to be done about it!
I wish I had gone to that Fare Strike protest at Yatton on Monday. I fully intended to go, but I didn't plan ahead well enough and so I ended up missing it, and now I wish so much that I had planned better and gone! Nothing will change if people don't stand up to make a difference. I want to make a difference.
It's not much, but I wrote to Ruth Kelly, Secretary for the Department of Transport. I wrote a long detailed letter as cordially and respectfully as possible, but making my feelings very clear about the state of FGW and the need for the franchise to be reallocated or even returned to public ownership until the government can find owners for it who'll be able to radically change how the franchise operates! I got her email addy from More Train Less Strain, a campaign group working for a better FGW service. Maybe I'll get a stock email in reply. Maybe I won't get a reply at all. But at least I did something.
I had an interview at FedEx this morning. The job looks good, but I won't know anything 'til next week. There's a lot of competition, but I did my best!
Play
I was playing Mahjong Garden today, and in the background there was a soundtrack of birds chattering, leaves rusting, and pond water gently splashing. Sunlight streamed in through my window; the sky outside is beautiful. I wish I could be outside in the warm sun, sitting atop a hill with Jei, listening to the sounds of nature and breathing in the scent of woodland and fields as we talk and laugh softly under the panoramic sky. I want to be there! I want to be in the sun and with nature and on a hill top and free and with Jei and happy and spread my arms out and feel the sun on my face. I want to laugh as the grass tickles my neck, and squeal as ants run over my arm, and grin and make daisy-chains that I'll put on Jei-ji's head while she pokes her tongue out at me. I want us to sit leaning back on our hands and just breath in and... be. I want to just be. In the sun. In the great outdoors. With Jei. I hope it's sunny when she's here.
For the first time in a long while, I danced. I searched my playlist for "summer" and "dance"... and then I turned my speakers up and danced. It felt good. I felt good. Jei says I dance well, but then she would; she looooves me. But I don't care about dancing well, I just wanted to get up and move to the music! I think when I'm dancing is one of the few times where I really regret not having two big fluffy fox-tails. How awesome would it be to just spin around and whoosh! Mmm. And I'm Colombian, so you know it's all in the hips. Colombians are sexy dancers. Haaa...
Conclusion
I've been feeling less bad lately. But today I've been feeling... happy. I think this is a good sign. I'm remembering how to enjoy the things I love, and how to love the things I enjoy. I remember how it feels to be giddy and bouncy and ecstatic just because I'm alive and it's sunny outside. I'd forgotten how good that feels!
You know what the trouble is? So many people are willing to nod their heads and say "yes, I agree!" about an issue, but so few are willing to then stand up to FIGHT for something to be done about it!
I wish I had gone to that Fare Strike protest at Yatton on Monday. I fully intended to go, but I didn't plan ahead well enough and so I ended up missing it, and now I wish so much that I had planned better and gone! Nothing will change if people don't stand up to make a difference. I want to make a difference.
It's not much, but I wrote to Ruth Kelly, Secretary for the Department of Transport. I wrote a long detailed letter as cordially and respectfully as possible, but making my feelings very clear about the state of FGW and the need for the franchise to be reallocated or even returned to public ownership until the government can find owners for it who'll be able to radically change how the franchise operates! I got her email addy from More Train Less Strain, a campaign group working for a better FGW service. Maybe I'll get a stock email in reply. Maybe I won't get a reply at all. But at least I did something.
I had an interview at FedEx this morning. The job looks good, but I won't know anything 'til next week. There's a lot of competition, but I did my best!
Play
I was playing Mahjong Garden today, and in the background there was a soundtrack of birds chattering, leaves rusting, and pond water gently splashing. Sunlight streamed in through my window; the sky outside is beautiful. I wish I could be outside in the warm sun, sitting atop a hill with Jei, listening to the sounds of nature and breathing in the scent of woodland and fields as we talk and laugh softly under the panoramic sky. I want to be there! I want to be in the sun and with nature and on a hill top and free and with Jei and happy and spread my arms out and feel the sun on my face. I want to laugh as the grass tickles my neck, and squeal as ants run over my arm, and grin and make daisy-chains that I'll put on Jei-ji's head while she pokes her tongue out at me. I want us to sit leaning back on our hands and just breath in and... be. I want to just be. In the sun. In the great outdoors. With Jei. I hope it's sunny when she's here.
For the first time in a long while, I danced. I searched my playlist for "summer" and "dance"... and then I turned my speakers up and danced. It felt good. I felt good. Jei says I dance well, but then she would; she looooves me. But I don't care about dancing well, I just wanted to get up and move to the music! I think when I'm dancing is one of the few times where I really regret not having two big fluffy fox-tails. How awesome would it be to just spin around and whoosh! Mmm. And I'm Colombian, so you know it's all in the hips. Colombians are sexy dancers. Haaa...
Conclusion
I've been feeling less bad lately. But today I've been feeling... happy. I think this is a good sign. I'm remembering how to enjoy the things I love, and how to love the things I enjoy. I remember how it feels to be giddy and bouncy and ecstatic just because I'm alive and it's sunny outside. I'd forgotten how good that feels!
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Date: 2008-01-30 04:19 pm (UTC)Also, good job on the letter. Hey, doing something like that's more than most people would've done, and you did bother to actually put in the effort and try and make a difference. It's the actions of people who think "I'm not doing much, but..." that actually do make a difference. It's the people who don't do anything because they're afraid of not doing enough that are more hindrance to things changing.
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Date: 2008-01-30 04:34 pm (UTC)And yeah, I guess writing the letter was at least something positive, even if I didn't make it to the campaign! Every little helps, after all :)
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Date: 2008-01-30 07:50 pm (UTC)Gah, I'm so glad you danced... that's a very good sign!
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Date: 2008-01-31 05:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-30 10:24 pm (UTC)And I'm extremely glad to read things are looking up Jai. It's nice to read an entry where you're feeling happy and right. You do deserve some happiness after all that stress, and I'm real glad you're finally getting that! ^^
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