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flyboy_foxRemember the Fujitsu job I talked about a little while ago? Well, I got an interview with them... on Friday. Eek! And tomorrow I'm helping out at the PDSA shop in town for a couple hours. I need to get my head together! ^^;
I was thinking about marshalling at the Weston Carnival this year. The carnival is awesome. It's on November 19th this year and they're looking for people to help out. On the one hand, it would be pretty darn awesome to actually help out at the carnival. On the other, I'd probably miss a lot more of it than I would as a normal bystander. But... but... carnival marshalling!
The weather's been nice lately, but it's definitely got colder. It's a shame, the past few days have actually been really sunny and nice... clear blue skies and all that. But cooooold. And the getting-dark-at-4:30 thing sucks. And the days are gonna keep getting shorter for a while yet :\ Idunlikeit! Lack of sunlight has a very negative impact on my mood. I'm just one of those people who gets depressed if I'm without daylight for too long. Which is ironic since I'm also hypersensitive to daylight XD; Limbo for meeee. Imagine a vampire who craves daylight and that's pretty much me. "Sunlight, yaaaaay!! ... ARG IT BURNS!!! ;_;"
Knuckles is being annoying. My puzzle-mobile thing of him, I mean XD; He won't stay on my wall. I keep putting him back up, and then five minutes later I see him out of the corner of my eye making a break for freedom. Dammit, Knux, stay put won't you? Oh! And I also got a new Knuckles plushie from someone on LJ who was selling it on eBay. I have so few Knux items, I figured the guy could use a little more love. Just, you know, Knux is cool. Nowhere near as cool as Sonic >.> But still, I like Knuckles, he's great.
I've been having a minor esteem-crash lately, I think. Not in an "I need everyone to tell me how wonderful I am!" emo kinda way. Just... I dunno. Feeling kinda useless and... embarrassed? Eh. Like, I don't want to post my stuff online because it's really not good, and just feeling a little on the outer edge of everything. I can't help sometimes feeling like Jei's always gonna shine brighter than me just because she's more talented and outgoing than I am. I know it's stupid to feel that way, because I have my own talents too and for someone so introverted, I sure have a lot of friends o.o But I guess sometimes I get into these self-depreciative slumps where I just kinda feel that noone really likes me... or at least, not much.
I think one trigger is SSMB right now. Jei and I have been almost single-handedly dealing with all the reports and stuff lately, responding to complaints, locking bad topics, dealing strikes to members who spam up the place. I always try to be as sensitive and fair as possible as a mod there, but recently I've had to deal with a LOT of reports on there, and as a result I've had an unusually large amount of angry backlash to deal with. I don't want to be the horrible strict mod who gets hated on, which is why I try to participate in regular forum conversation as much as possible and I always explain my moderating actions in as friendly and civil a way as possible, no matter how annoyed I am at the time. But of course, some people react badly, and I've just had a lot of it these past few days. Nevertheless, the Hallowe'en competition that Jei and I ran over there, of which I wrote up and Jei did the prizes for, was a success. We got quite a few entries despite the contest being announced kinda shot-notice and being a photo contest, and we chose three winners, which was fun. So it's not all bad. Just... meh.
Maybe I'll feel less down on myself when I have a job again. I don't like feeling useless ^^;
Oh 'eck, I just got the specifications for the job ^^; Ah, I can handle a basic I.T. support desk position... right?
I was thinking about marshalling at the Weston Carnival this year. The carnival is awesome. It's on November 19th this year and they're looking for people to help out. On the one hand, it would be pretty darn awesome to actually help out at the carnival. On the other, I'd probably miss a lot more of it than I would as a normal bystander. But... but... carnival marshalling!
The weather's been nice lately, but it's definitely got colder. It's a shame, the past few days have actually been really sunny and nice... clear blue skies and all that. But cooooold. And the getting-dark-at-4:30 thing sucks. And the days are gonna keep getting shorter for a while yet :\ Idunlikeit! Lack of sunlight has a very negative impact on my mood. I'm just one of those people who gets depressed if I'm without daylight for too long. Which is ironic since I'm also hypersensitive to daylight XD; Limbo for meeee. Imagine a vampire who craves daylight and that's pretty much me. "Sunlight, yaaaaay!! ... ARG IT BURNS!!! ;_;"
Knuckles is being annoying. My puzzle-mobile thing of him, I mean XD; He won't stay on my wall. I keep putting him back up, and then five minutes later I see him out of the corner of my eye making a break for freedom. Dammit, Knux, stay put won't you? Oh! And I also got a new Knuckles plushie from someone on LJ who was selling it on eBay. I have so few Knux items, I figured the guy could use a little more love. Just, you know, Knux is cool. Nowhere near as cool as Sonic >.> But still, I like Knuckles, he's great.
I've been having a minor esteem-crash lately, I think. Not in an "I need everyone to tell me how wonderful I am!" emo kinda way. Just... I dunno. Feeling kinda useless and... embarrassed? Eh. Like, I don't want to post my stuff online because it's really not good, and just feeling a little on the outer edge of everything. I can't help sometimes feeling like Jei's always gonna shine brighter than me just because she's more talented and outgoing than I am. I know it's stupid to feel that way, because I have my own talents too and for someone so introverted, I sure have a lot of friends o.o But I guess sometimes I get into these self-depreciative slumps where I just kinda feel that noone really likes me... or at least, not much.
I think one trigger is SSMB right now. Jei and I have been almost single-handedly dealing with all the reports and stuff lately, responding to complaints, locking bad topics, dealing strikes to members who spam up the place. I always try to be as sensitive and fair as possible as a mod there, but recently I've had to deal with a LOT of reports on there, and as a result I've had an unusually large amount of angry backlash to deal with. I don't want to be the horrible strict mod who gets hated on, which is why I try to participate in regular forum conversation as much as possible and I always explain my moderating actions in as friendly and civil a way as possible, no matter how annoyed I am at the time. But of course, some people react badly, and I've just had a lot of it these past few days. Nevertheless, the Hallowe'en competition that Jei and I ran over there, of which I wrote up and Jei did the prizes for, was a success. We got quite a few entries despite the contest being announced kinda shot-notice and being a photo contest, and we chose three winners, which was fun. So it's not all bad. Just... meh.
Maybe I'll feel less down on myself when I have a job again. I don't like feeling useless ^^;
Oh 'eck, I just got the specifications for the job ^^; Ah, I can handle a basic I.T. support desk position... right?
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Date: 2007-11-07 07:39 pm (UTC)Anyway, I'm not more talented or outgoing than you are. You have far more friends than I have, and far more people know you online. I'm on DA, but DA is silly. You shine so bright and I "really like you". Although I don't think I count.
SSMB is a pain though. It's so awesome how we work together, but it is kinda backlashing. Like how two very recent comments in my profile had to mention me locking topics like it something I do way more than I should. And then there's the angry PMs, which I'm sure you've been getting a lot too... but you can't take it personally. If the other mods would do their jobs and handle some of the reports sometimes we wouldn't look like the bad guys... x.x arg. It's annoying.
Anyway, I know it's around that time of year for you when you get bloop. ;_; I'm sorry...
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Date: 2007-11-07 09:31 pm (UTC)Eh, well at least the SSMB thing is aired now. Hopefully we'll see an improvement? n.n; Until they all forget and it slips back to just being us again XD
But like you said before, we're a great team! n.n