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flyboy_foxAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
::Runs in circles, randomly switching direction and crashing into things::
... ^^; Sorry. I have my tail(s) in a knot because I have my interview at Hertfordshire tomorrow. I don't expect to get an answer immediately, but naturally I'm nervous. So much hinges on this! This interview will decide whether I get to go to the same university as Jei, if her application is also successful (of which I have no doubt - what art school wouldn't want her!).
I'm terribly afraid that I won't get in. I've applied to do 3D Games Art, which I might possibly switch over to 3D Digital Animation. I'm handy with computers. But I'm no artist. I don't have a portfolio to demonstrate my traditional artistic skills, because I have no traditional artistic skills ^^; 3D design and animation courses vary VASTLY between institutions. Some don't ask for any 'traditional' art skill or experience. Some, however, absolutely require a background in the fine arts. I have a sinking feeling that this particular university is looking for the more traditionally artistically inclined... and that they might either turn me down completely, or only accept me if I take a year-long Foundation Degree in a fine arts-related subject first.
If either of those things happen, I know I'll be crushed.
I want this so much... and I know Jei deserves it far more than me. She's earned it. So if she gets in and I don't, fair play to her... I'll have to not take it personally. But my stomach feels like it's running through speed loops on an endless circuit right now. If I don't get in, it's not the end of the world. I have a conditional offer at Newport, which looks to be a wonderful college. But dammit, I've waited 8+ years to be with Jei... to coexist in the same place, and just have a normal relationship. We'd still see each other far more easily even if we go to different Unis, but we'd still be about 4 hours apart... we couldn't just hang out together on a whim.
I feel like we've earned this. We've fought so hard to stay together and strong across 5,000 miles. We made do with seeing each other only a couple times per year in person, because we knew eventually we'd be together without ANY time restraints. We made a pact... we'd go bowling every Friday, if we had the money. Friday Night Bowling. The simple things are sometimes the things worth fighting hardest for.
Please accept me, Hertfordshire.
::Runs in circles, randomly switching direction and crashing into things::
... ^^; Sorry. I have my tail(s) in a knot because I have my interview at Hertfordshire tomorrow. I don't expect to get an answer immediately, but naturally I'm nervous. So much hinges on this! This interview will decide whether I get to go to the same university as Jei, if her application is also successful (of which I have no doubt - what art school wouldn't want her!).
I'm terribly afraid that I won't get in. I've applied to do 3D Games Art, which I might possibly switch over to 3D Digital Animation. I'm handy with computers. But I'm no artist. I don't have a portfolio to demonstrate my traditional artistic skills, because I have no traditional artistic skills ^^; 3D design and animation courses vary VASTLY between institutions. Some don't ask for any 'traditional' art skill or experience. Some, however, absolutely require a background in the fine arts. I have a sinking feeling that this particular university is looking for the more traditionally artistically inclined... and that they might either turn me down completely, or only accept me if I take a year-long Foundation Degree in a fine arts-related subject first.
If either of those things happen, I know I'll be crushed.
I want this so much... and I know Jei deserves it far more than me. She's earned it. So if she gets in and I don't, fair play to her... I'll have to not take it personally. But my stomach feels like it's running through speed loops on an endless circuit right now. If I don't get in, it's not the end of the world. I have a conditional offer at Newport, which looks to be a wonderful college. But dammit, I've waited 8+ years to be with Jei... to coexist in the same place, and just have a normal relationship. We'd still see each other far more easily even if we go to different Unis, but we'd still be about 4 hours apart... we couldn't just hang out together on a whim.
I feel like we've earned this. We've fought so hard to stay together and strong across 5,000 miles. We made do with seeing each other only a couple times per year in person, because we knew eventually we'd be together without ANY time restraints. We made a pact... we'd go bowling every Friday, if we had the money. Friday Night Bowling. The simple things are sometimes the things worth fighting hardest for.
Please accept me, Hertfordshire.
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Date: 2007-03-29 05:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-03-29 06:36 pm (UTC)again, without the retardation
Date: 2007-03-29 09:40 pm (UTC)Re: again, without the retardation
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Date: 2007-03-30 05:25 am (UTC)Good luck, kid~! <3 *hugs*
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Date: 2007-03-30 06:54 am (UTC)