Hey Jealousy
Sep. 15th, 2010 11:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flyboy_foxInterview today. Wah.
I'm gonna sound like a bitter and broken record, but I really wish I had Miles' confidence. I'm pretty damn nervous about this interview (and the job itself, should I get it), and he's just kinda (mentally) half-lidding at me like he can't understand what the problem is. We'll have money, he says, as if that somehow will magically make me get the job or not be scared about it. Honestly, I wish HE could do the interview and take the job, because he'd sail it. He's just that kind of confident smooth-talking git who could talk anyone into buying anything. He can be charming when he needs to be, and very persuasive. I don't think he'd even mind doing it if it meant the money he'd get would technically be his as a result (he has plans e.x). If we integrated better, it wouldn't be a problem. But, we don't act much alike, so it could potentially get weird. His intonation when talking, mannerisms etc are very different to mine. Unless I could be certain that he'd never swap out on me mid-session, it would be too much of a risk. I mean, he's got no reason to sabotage me; he wants me to get this job just as much as I do, if not more. But I guess I'm leery of giving up that much control in my own life. A job, if I ever get one, is a huge thing. Maybe that's even kind of selfish. If he could do it better than me and if he's totally nonchalant where I'm shitting myself, maybe it would even be a good idea. I can't help lol'ing at the idea of Miles doing business-to-business I.T./blue-chip-based sales calls for a living now that he's stuck here. It's not quite as exciting or glamorous as overthrowing a despot king and plotting revenge on a parallel dimension, is it? Yet I think recently he's finally getting the idea that his freedoms in this life are a bit more limited and that he might have to tone down his ambitions, at least for now :P But yeah. I are possessive of this life I guess :\ And stubborn. And probably going to shoot myself in the foot.
Urk, gotta go hop in the shower now, then go fill out some forms at the job agency before the interview. @_@ Laters!
Edit: Mmm~ Shower <3
A week after dying my hairblack 'midnight' blue-black I'm still rinsing excess colour out in the shower :P I used the weekly colour-protecting shine conditioner stuff today and mmmmmm my hair is so silky and soft and ahhh~ ;_; So nice! I'm not usually one to go on about bath products and pampering but that was a NICE shower. Oh OH also! I have a Pink Cow bodywash called 'Mint Candy' and it smells EXACTLY like mint-choc-chip ice-cream. HEAVEN. And so sudsy! So nice. Ahh... I don't think anything could have calmed me down for this interview like that shower did. [/giiiirly >_>;]
Edit 2: *DED* Telephone interview = success. Face-to-face interview at noon tomorrow o.o;;;
I'm gonna sound like a bitter and broken record, but I really wish I had Miles' confidence. I'm pretty damn nervous about this interview (and the job itself, should I get it), and he's just kinda (mentally) half-lidding at me like he can't understand what the problem is. We'll have money, he says, as if that somehow will magically make me get the job or not be scared about it. Honestly, I wish HE could do the interview and take the job, because he'd sail it. He's just that kind of confident smooth-talking git who could talk anyone into buying anything. He can be charming when he needs to be, and very persuasive. I don't think he'd even mind doing it if it meant the money he'd get would technically be his as a result (he has plans e.x). If we integrated better, it wouldn't be a problem. But, we don't act much alike, so it could potentially get weird. His intonation when talking, mannerisms etc are very different to mine. Unless I could be certain that he'd never swap out on me mid-session, it would be too much of a risk. I mean, he's got no reason to sabotage me; he wants me to get this job just as much as I do, if not more. But I guess I'm leery of giving up that much control in my own life. A job, if I ever get one, is a huge thing. Maybe that's even kind of selfish. If he could do it better than me and if he's totally nonchalant where I'm shitting myself, maybe it would even be a good idea. I can't help lol'ing at the idea of Miles doing business-to-business I.T./blue-chip-based sales calls for a living now that he's stuck here. It's not quite as exciting or glamorous as overthrowing a despot king and plotting revenge on a parallel dimension, is it? Yet I think recently he's finally getting the idea that his freedoms in this life are a bit more limited and that he might have to tone down his ambitions, at least for now :P But yeah. I are possessive of this life I guess :\ And stubborn. And probably going to shoot myself in the foot.
Urk, gotta go hop in the shower now, then go fill out some forms at the job agency before the interview. @_@ Laters!
Edit: Mmm~ Shower <3
A week after dying my hair
Edit 2: *DED* Telephone interview = success. Face-to-face interview at noon tomorrow o.o;;;
