In which Jai is a 'fraidy-fox.
May. 11th, 2010 11:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flyboy_foxOkay, advice post. Because I need some ^^;
As most of you guys know, I live with my fiancée Jei in an apartment in Bournemouth. But she's American and is only here for University term time. That means that in a couple of weeks she's going home for the summer to spend time with her family, which I'm of course totally supportive of. However, that means I'll be living here alone for two months (June, July) until she comes back for Summer of Sonic in August.
My problem isn't so much living by myself - I'm cool with that. I can manage although of course I'll miss her like heck. The problem is that I'm a wuss and I don't like being by myself at night. I get really creeped out in the dark, and having a night light doesn't really help much. My mind plays tricks on me and although I don't believe in ghosts etc, at night my brain seems to go haywire. I feel like I'm expecting something to happen. I'm afraid to look at any mirrors. I feel like every small object in the room is seething with kinetic potential, ready to fly at me or across the room at any moment. I'm terrified of hearing voices. Even when I'm lying in bed, I seem to convince myself that the bed is shaking beneath me, even if I know that's not the case.
Basically, I'm a master of freaking myself out at night. And I know what will end up happening. I'll be afraid to go to bed and so I'll wind up staying awake all night until daybreak every night ^^;
So basically... any advice as to how I can make myself feel safer and not be creeped out at night while I'm living here alone? It's really the only part I'm worried about, and I need to get over it because at 25 it seems ridiculous to be scared of the dark and of sleeping alone ^^;;
As most of you guys know, I live with my fiancée Jei in an apartment in Bournemouth. But she's American and is only here for University term time. That means that in a couple of weeks she's going home for the summer to spend time with her family, which I'm of course totally supportive of. However, that means I'll be living here alone for two months (June, July) until she comes back for Summer of Sonic in August.
My problem isn't so much living by myself - I'm cool with that. I can manage although of course I'll miss her like heck. The problem is that I'm a wuss and I don't like being by myself at night. I get really creeped out in the dark, and having a night light doesn't really help much. My mind plays tricks on me and although I don't believe in ghosts etc, at night my brain seems to go haywire. I feel like I'm expecting something to happen. I'm afraid to look at any mirrors. I feel like every small object in the room is seething with kinetic potential, ready to fly at me or across the room at any moment. I'm terrified of hearing voices. Even when I'm lying in bed, I seem to convince myself that the bed is shaking beneath me, even if I know that's not the case.
Basically, I'm a master of freaking myself out at night. And I know what will end up happening. I'll be afraid to go to bed and so I'll wind up staying awake all night until daybreak every night ^^;
So basically... any advice as to how I can make myself feel safer and not be creeped out at night while I'm living here alone? It's really the only part I'm worried about, and I need to get over it because at 25 it seems ridiculous to be scared of the dark and of sleeping alone ^^;;
