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~All in all...~
Sep. 30th, 2006 05:52 pmStill working on that long update ^^;
I have a confession to make. I'm worried about turning 22 in a couple of weeks. I have this feeling of sickening and impending doom as I think about becoming another year older. I'm worried about something quite silly, but it's seriously concerning me - I fear that soon I'll be too old for the fandom. Let me get one things straight - I'm not worried about outgrowing the fandom. It won't happen; I'm perpetually a child at heart, that won't change. What worries me is whether the fandom will continue to accept me as I head into my mid-twenties. I know a lot of you are similar age to me, but I am at the older end - I don't think many of you are 22 or older. What frightens me is the thought that soon there'll be no one of my age left in the fandom. When people find out my age, they'll think I'm weird or they won't want to involve me because of the age difference. It seems stupid. I just don't want to be a lone 'adult' amongst kids, always aware of being older than them, wondering what they think of that 20-something-year-old guy who's still drawing fanart and RPing and obsessing over teen and preteen cartoon/game characters x.x I don't want to be oooold. I know, I know, 22 isn't old. But it's older than most in the fandom, and time won't stop. Every day I'm older. I want to stop, to go back and be 14 again! Heck, I'd settle for 17... I hate that my teen years are over, and I hate that I'm heading into my twenties... 22 already. No longer a 'kid'. I wanna be a kid again. Argh. Someone please just tell me I'm still young and that the Sonic fandom won't kick me out for progressing into my twenties... ^^;;
Something else on my mind has to do with something entirely different. It's becoming increasingly obvious that my eyesight is AWFUL. My VERY short vision is fine (reading a book, using the computer, playing a handheld videogame), but I need glasses for anything beyond arm's length. I can't read the titles of books just a couple meters across the room from me. I can't watch TV or play on my GameCube without glasses. My eyesight is definitely getting worse x.x I think it's time I had another check-up (it's not surprising my eyesight is so bad with the hours I spend on my computer @_@), but more than that... I've come to the conclusion that I should probably be wearing my glasses all the time. The world is a blur without them. The thing is, I hate how I look with glasses. I think I kinda look like Harry Potter, and that bothers me. I look geeky, that's for sure. So, I've been holding off, although I do wear my glasses most of the time at college. Perhaps I'll take a picture of me with my glasses on and you can all tell me if I look ridiculous or not :P
Anyway, that's it for now ^^; Sorry for being such a worrywart lately.
I have a confession to make. I'm worried about turning 22 in a couple of weeks. I have this feeling of sickening and impending doom as I think about becoming another year older. I'm worried about something quite silly, but it's seriously concerning me - I fear that soon I'll be too old for the fandom. Let me get one things straight - I'm not worried about outgrowing the fandom. It won't happen; I'm perpetually a child at heart, that won't change. What worries me is whether the fandom will continue to accept me as I head into my mid-twenties. I know a lot of you are similar age to me, but I am at the older end - I don't think many of you are 22 or older. What frightens me is the thought that soon there'll be no one of my age left in the fandom. When people find out my age, they'll think I'm weird or they won't want to involve me because of the age difference. It seems stupid. I just don't want to be a lone 'adult' amongst kids, always aware of being older than them, wondering what they think of that 20-something-year-old guy who's still drawing fanart and RPing and obsessing over teen and preteen cartoon/game characters x.x I don't want to be oooold. I know, I know, 22 isn't old. But it's older than most in the fandom, and time won't stop. Every day I'm older. I want to stop, to go back and be 14 again! Heck, I'd settle for 17... I hate that my teen years are over, and I hate that I'm heading into my twenties... 22 already. No longer a 'kid'. I wanna be a kid again. Argh. Someone please just tell me I'm still young and that the Sonic fandom won't kick me out for progressing into my twenties... ^^;;
Something else on my mind has to do with something entirely different. It's becoming increasingly obvious that my eyesight is AWFUL. My VERY short vision is fine (reading a book, using the computer, playing a handheld videogame), but I need glasses for anything beyond arm's length. I can't read the titles of books just a couple meters across the room from me. I can't watch TV or play on my GameCube without glasses. My eyesight is definitely getting worse x.x I think it's time I had another check-up (it's not surprising my eyesight is so bad with the hours I spend on my computer @_@), but more than that... I've come to the conclusion that I should probably be wearing my glasses all the time. The world is a blur without them. The thing is, I hate how I look with glasses. I think I kinda look like Harry Potter, and that bothers me. I look geeky, that's for sure. So, I've been holding off, although I do wear my glasses most of the time at college. Perhaps I'll take a picture of me with my glasses on and you can all tell me if I look ridiculous or not :P
Anyway, that's it for now ^^; Sorry for being such a worrywart lately.
