Crazy? Moi?
Mar. 6th, 2009 10:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flyboy_foxStill sick with this cold. Today I didn't feel well at all. I tried to get some sleep in the afternoon, but I couldn't lie down without coughing, and I couldn't get comfy 'cause I was hot and cold. Most of all I just felt unwell. Jei came over to see me and bought me some medicine, then she went home because I was too "x.x" to do anything. Sorry, Jei. At least one good thing is that I have virtually no appetite, so now would be a great time to start eating less and lose some weight before going home at Easter. It'd be nice to go home one time and not have my mum scrutinise my weight. I'm a healthy weight and well within my ideal BMI, but my mum tends to notice and be scornful of even the slightest bit of extra fat on me. I love her so much, but I do think she has a complex whereby she's not happy unless I'm skinny. But I'm gonna do it for myself, too, just to be more healthy. It's far too easy to rely on junk food instead of eating more healthily.
Speaking of which, I need to buy more tinned ratatouille and mushy peas. I like both those things and they're very healthy. Tinned fish with either of those things is a good meal.
So, about =SSMB=. It's back. But everything from before has been completely wiped, so it's essentially a brand new board. All the old posts are gone, as are the skins, banners, badges etc. Yet, despite the catastrophe, people are flocking back in their hundreds. As of right now, there are 415 members - most of whom are re-joining but several of whom are brand new and joined after hearing about our plight on other 'sites! During the interim time, AAUK ('that bloke from SEGA') put us up at his forum, Entherial Online, aka Sonic Wrecks' forum. He was kind enough to give a couple of us temporary mod powers and he even gave me a custom user group, which made me grin. I plan to stick around there now. Forum needs more love. =TSS= is mostly restored and I think =SSMB= will be fine. Sometimes the fandom really comes together during a problem, and it's actually very heartwarming.
Edit: Ooo, we have a banner now! Yay!
I wonder how long it will be before I get epically trolled. Strange thing to come out of nowhere, but I just happened upon a comment on a thread about my tattoo (which I stumbled on after following a link to a post about Sonic Relief '09) where someone had posted something along the lines of "it's even more funny when you realise this is the chick who was featured on SA about a year ago because she believes she was actually Tails in a past life". Amazing how quickly people put two and two together. I had no idea that anyone even remembered that. Y'know, I think I'm still too much of a small fry to be really taken notice of, but even if it happens... well, screw it. If it happens, it happens. The thing is, I know that I'm 'fair game'. The other day I was feeling slightly hurt over comments calling me an 'ugly lesbian', a 'dirty whore' and a 'tranny' on another tattoo article. I was also a little alarmed at how many places had articles on my tattoo (though not upset about that!). Jei said "you put your tattoo on the internet; it's fair game", and she's totally right. Besides, the majority of attention I've received has been overwhelmingly positive. I do have a thin skin sometimes, and I need to thicken it up. If I do things that are unusual, I have to deal with the attention it draws, positive and negative alike. I can't see myself shirking away from being, well, me... so I suppose whatever happens I just need to deal with more gracefully.
I've been thinking about Mobius a lot lately. Just picturing in my head what I feel it looks like, or at least parts of it. The Great Forest, Knothole Village, the Big City. I have a very clear picture in my mind of those places, especially Knothole. If I could draw, I feel like I could map out my idea of it so precisely. Every dwelling, every tree, all of it. I think about the people too... mostly Sonic, Sally, Bunnie... sometimes Amy. And then the night before last I had a really vivid dream. Everyone in it looked so real, just like I'm sure they would if they <i>were</i> real. There was a warehouse, a really big one, all dingy and cluttered, with flickering lights hanging from the ceiling. The Freedom Fighters looked older... most of them in their early-mid twenties. A lot of them I didn't recognise. Freedom Fighters from elsewhere, or more recent recruits, I don't know. They were all working hard, shifting boxes and packing/unpacking stuff, like they were getting ready for something big. The most striking thing, though, was the vibe... it was almost post-apocalyptic. Everyone seemed tired, worn, on edge. There was an air of irony and wryness slathered thickly over everything to mask just how bad things were. All the playful free-spiritedness had drained away and everything was just a matter of rote now. They'd been fighting an endless war for almost a decade now and they were all really tired and starting to lose hope. Relationships and tempers were frayed, no one dared truly speak their mind. They just kept at it because it was all they could do.
It was actually a very brief dream. A matter of minutes, if that. I don't know why I can't shake it out of my head. Must be my 'crazy' acting up again.
I think this post is probably the result of me being slightly feverish and thus not knowing better. Perhaps I should cut it off now.
Bye.
Speaking of which, I need to buy more tinned ratatouille and mushy peas. I like both those things and they're very healthy. Tinned fish with either of those things is a good meal.
So, about =SSMB=. It's back. But everything from before has been completely wiped, so it's essentially a brand new board. All the old posts are gone, as are the skins, banners, badges etc. Yet, despite the catastrophe, people are flocking back in their hundreds. As of right now, there are 415 members - most of whom are re-joining but several of whom are brand new and joined after hearing about our plight on other 'sites! During the interim time, AAUK ('that bloke from SEGA') put us up at his forum, Entherial Online, aka Sonic Wrecks' forum. He was kind enough to give a couple of us temporary mod powers and he even gave me a custom user group, which made me grin. I plan to stick around there now. Forum needs more love. =TSS= is mostly restored and I think =SSMB= will be fine. Sometimes the fandom really comes together during a problem, and it's actually very heartwarming.
Edit: Ooo, we have a banner now! Yay!
I wonder how long it will be before I get epically trolled. Strange thing to come out of nowhere, but I just happened upon a comment on a thread about my tattoo (which I stumbled on after following a link to a post about Sonic Relief '09) where someone had posted something along the lines of "it's even more funny when you realise this is the chick who was featured on SA about a year ago because she believes she was actually Tails in a past life". Amazing how quickly people put two and two together. I had no idea that anyone even remembered that. Y'know, I think I'm still too much of a small fry to be really taken notice of, but even if it happens... well, screw it. If it happens, it happens. The thing is, I know that I'm 'fair game'. The other day I was feeling slightly hurt over comments calling me an 'ugly lesbian', a 'dirty whore' and a 'tranny' on another tattoo article. I was also a little alarmed at how many places had articles on my tattoo (though not upset about that!). Jei said "you put your tattoo on the internet; it's fair game", and she's totally right. Besides, the majority of attention I've received has been overwhelmingly positive. I do have a thin skin sometimes, and I need to thicken it up. If I do things that are unusual, I have to deal with the attention it draws, positive and negative alike. I can't see myself shirking away from being, well, me... so I suppose whatever happens I just need to deal with more gracefully.
I've been thinking about Mobius a lot lately. Just picturing in my head what I feel it looks like, or at least parts of it. The Great Forest, Knothole Village, the Big City. I have a very clear picture in my mind of those places, especially Knothole. If I could draw, I feel like I could map out my idea of it so precisely. Every dwelling, every tree, all of it. I think about the people too... mostly Sonic, Sally, Bunnie... sometimes Amy. And then the night before last I had a really vivid dream. Everyone in it looked so real, just like I'm sure they would if they <i>were</i> real. There was a warehouse, a really big one, all dingy and cluttered, with flickering lights hanging from the ceiling. The Freedom Fighters looked older... most of them in their early-mid twenties. A lot of them I didn't recognise. Freedom Fighters from elsewhere, or more recent recruits, I don't know. They were all working hard, shifting boxes and packing/unpacking stuff, like they were getting ready for something big. The most striking thing, though, was the vibe... it was almost post-apocalyptic. Everyone seemed tired, worn, on edge. There was an air of irony and wryness slathered thickly over everything to mask just how bad things were. All the playful free-spiritedness had drained away and everything was just a matter of rote now. They'd been fighting an endless war for almost a decade now and they were all really tired and starting to lose hope. Relationships and tempers were frayed, no one dared truly speak their mind. They just kept at it because it was all they could do.
It was actually a very brief dream. A matter of minutes, if that. I don't know why I can't shake it out of my head. Must be my 'crazy' acting up again.
I think this post is probably the result of me being slightly feverish and thus not knowing better. Perhaps I should cut it off now.
Bye.
